Hello world!
 I am getting the sneaky feeling that thoughts.com is messing with me.
They keep not recognizing my password, and have been giving me a new one every time I log on. Then the next time I log on they won't accept the new password. ARRRGG!
 Well today is thursday october 25, at 4:51 a.m.
 They gave me another new password so here I am!
 I feel a little bad telling you all this, but I couldn't get out of bed yesterday,(back was a real pain in the ass) lol
 But today is another new day and I'm feeling great.
 I was reading all the recent posts by people and was touched by all of those who are suffering from different things that are happening to them. If I could take you all into my arms, hold you, and ease your pain, I would.
 Why is it that we are made to suffer so much. Why can't we stop the hurt and pain?
 I have no-idea, I just know that it doesn't matter what life has in store for me anymore, I am ready to take it head on.
 I'll try not to bore you with all the details of my life, but boy oh boy there was a price to pay to get where I am today.
 You know how people are always pondering about what they would do different with their lives if they had the chance to do them over?
 Well I have, and the only things I would change are the things I did to other people.
 I have come to realize that there were times that I stepped on others, and there were times that I broke someone elses heart. I really do wish I hadn't  done those things, because now I know how much it hurts when one gets their heart broken.
 I see alot of postings from people that have been let down by another, and I feel your pains.
 Yeah, I have been there too. And I know how your whole life seems to not make sense anymore.
 Sometimes you feel that this is no-longer a reason to live. It takes a lot of time to get beyond this.
 You will get beyond this!
 If you can stand the pain for a while, it will go away!
 Find the strength within yourself, occupy yourself with things you still want, and have to do. And it won't be long until you find that you get over your lost love and there are new and better things yet to come.
 I certainly don't believe that I am deserving the Love from the woman I am now with, but I thank God ( cause I don't know who else to thank) for her every day!
 Although I live in pain in my back with every tick of the clock, and I have to do drugs just to get through the day, I look at what my life has become and I am more than thankfull for what I do have.
 Hang in there, those of you who have loved and lost, because if your really good person inside, then Love will find you again.
 That is my word, and you can count on it!