As I was in the worst of my suffering with the pain from a most recent surgery, I was crying uncontrolably at times, but she was there.
 She would hug me and hold me and suggest many different things to maybe reduce some of the pain.
 Maybe she doesn't really know, or maybe she might not be able to believe, but it's just her being there that matterrs most to me.
 I know she can't heal me, hell the Doctors were the ones who screwed me up in the first place, and she's no- doctor. LOL
 What she is: the person that cries with me and would take my pain unto herself, rather than watch me suffer.                            Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â  Â Â Â Â Â  That is the medicine that means the most.
 It's the Love she bestows upon me that distracts my mind from the moment.
 It's the care in which she touches me.
 It's the genuine emotion that she reaches out with that makes the pain more tolerrable.
 But it's the constant hovering that drives me up a wall.(ain't love great?)
 I consider myself to be one of the lucky people in life.
 I have never won any contests, or lottery's, or games of chance, but what I have won, is her Love!
 I have a son who when we part company always gives his dad a big old hug. He's 33.
 I had a loving daughter who passed back in 2001, but just the day before she left: she sat on her daddy's lap and told me about her day. She was 27
 I live in the country and I don't have to put up with all the next door fueding that happens in the city.
 I've got three loving dogs, and one arrogant cat. (yeah she loves me when she wants something) LOL
 I have been through more B---S--- in these last six years, that I sometimes get a little down and wonder why would God rain on my parade like this, but then my mind seems to clear(yeah right lol) and I come to realize just how lucky and damn good I have got it.
 Hell it's only been one full week of crying and now I am almost all better.
I know that this implant was not going to bring me one hundred percent relieve, but heck it's giving me 40% and that at least one less pill per day.
 But then I look back at just how dedicated and loving my wife is for me, and I decide that I don't care what happens to my body, as long as I have her LOVE !
 Yeah when it comes right down to it: I'm probably the luckiest man alive!




                                                                             Love & Peace,
                                                                               jwcj