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Ok, so today kinda sucked. I woke up and I was in so much pain, it was horrible. But the day got better as it went on. Well I spent the morning with my niece, whom I just found out was my niece yesterday. It was pretty cool to find that out, I love her to death, she's adorable. But my brother was being a dick the whole day, saying she was gonna fuck up his life, I don't understand him. She's a great baby. You give her some toys and put in a movie, and she's good to go. So he just needs to suck up and accept the consequences of having sex! Then my uncle started dissing me yesterday, calling me a whore and a whole bunch of shit, so I was super depressed yesterday, until I started talking to Mark. I really like talking to him, and I think I love him... But anyways... on to today, so after I woke up, I got in a fight with my mom. That was pretty bad. Then my knees started hurting so bad I wanted to cry. I ended up watching my sister and my niece, while my mom was sleeping, my sister is such a brat, she would not leave Torri alone no matter what! She kept getting in her face, squeezing her, shaking her, and stealing her toys. She's five years old and thinks she's a baby and everyone should do as she says... I know she's a kid but she really needs to leave babies alone... she basically suffocates them, and gets them to the point of crying everytime they see her. Ok, so after that, my mom woke up and called my cousin-in-law. We talked to her for awhile, and found out she's filing for divorce from my cousin. Which is kinda sad because I love spending time with her and Summer when we go to West Virginia... So I hope she stays around. Next I found out my other cousin left her husband. Things in my family seem to keep falling apart, everyone is getting divorced, left, heartbroken, or in severe crisis or whatever. My cousin's [Michael] wife [Joy] just had a miscarriage. =[ It made me super sad because they really wanted this baby, they had everything set-up and everything. =[ And everyone lives so far away now... I mean I never really got along with my Dad's side of the family, but now we'll never be a close family, they all live more than 35 minutes away. Ever since my Mawmaw had her heartattack, things in this family get worse and worse, most of the time something like that draws family's together... we'll not in this family. It's just so screwed up.
So back to the part where I was talking about Mark... He's awesome. He's like super easy to talk to and I really enjoy talking to him, like I've never felt so comfortable talking to someone on the internet before. I think about him a lot, too. It's weird, because the only other person I felt like this towards, in such a short time, was Josh Johnson... And I really do think I love him, like when I'm not talking to him, I think about him all the time. And when we do talk, we talk forever, whether on the phone or IM, it's always a pretty long time. Every time I talk to him I'm always smiling or blushing, he makes me feel good =D, but it's kinda weird cuz I'm not used to this. Lol. But I don't really know what to do, because he lives so far away =[, and I don't know if I'm gonna be able to keep him happy because I live so far away... -ugh- -.- I don't know what to do... But I guess if it's meant to happen it will, right? I hope it is!!!
Ok, now to why my Mom and I got in a fight... She wants me to move out... I'm 17 years old, I ain't ready to move out, but she wants me to live with her lifelong friend Howard. He live's in West Virginia, I mean I wouldn't mind living in West Virginia, but damn I'm basically getting kicked out. I don't understand why either, She tried to explain, but it made no sense what so ever! She said because I'm always smoking up their cigarette's and because I cause a lot of fights... I'm either in my room listening to music, watching tv in the bedroom, or on the computer. I rarely ever fight with someone, unless they start it. I try not to fight with family, because it's a waste of time, but she just doesn't believe me I guess. She takes their word over mine anyways. But whatever ya know, I'll be 18 in 293 days so... Forget her, but yeah I'm out of things to talk about now... so i'll write tomorrow or sometime.
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Posted by justme420 on 2007-12-06 22:29:39 | Rating: | Views: 62
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Alright, first I wrote out a fabulous comment for you...and then I wanted to tell you about one of my very good friends, I went back to check the spelling and out the door my fucking bitching comment went! I'm sorry! But listen...her name is violet maeee, and she seems to be about your age, and maybe someone you can relate to.
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Posted by smilinirisheyes
on 2007-12-06 22:57:03
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Dear just me,
Even if I tell you about all the bullshit I went through when I was your age, it wouldn't help you a bit.
I can only tell you, that if you get yourself a job, save your money the best you can, then you will be better prepared for the day that you are going to be on your own.
My family was very disfuntional like yours, and I had to leave home when I was thirteen. I didn't have a job, and I ended up being hungry a lot. ( I once ate unripe green apples for a week out of an orchard and man will that give you the shit's)
Sounds like your'e having to grow up a bit faster than you may want to, but if you can find a job and a place to live, and you make a plan of what you want to accomplsh, then life won't be so hard.
You need to do these things without relying on a guy or anyone else, cause they will always let you down.
The story of a princess kissing a frog, then living happily ever after is just that, a story!
That is not the way it will come together for you in the real world!
Your going to have to count on yourself to get the things you want from life.
Don't think that a boy and a baby will be the answers to your prayers, because you'll most likely loose the boy once you have a baby, and then you'll be left alone to raise a child.
I know that you would not want to raise a kid by yourself and then have to kick the kid out of your house the way your mother wants to kick you out.
Yep. get a job, save your money, find an apartment, and make your own way for a while. Once you get finacially stable, you can then think about furthering your education so that you may find a career.
The first steps are going to be the hardest and there are going to be many nights you will be so alone, but if you set your mind to it, then you will succeed!
I know that it is harder for a young woman, but then you women are a lot stronger than you give yourselves credit for.
I wish you all the best, and I will put my karma on high for you.
Love & Peace,
jwcj
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Posted by jwcj
on 2007-12-07 03:44:28
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Dear just me,
Even if I tell you about all the bullshit I went through when I was your age, it wouldn't help you a bit.
I can only tell you, that if you get yourself a job, save your money the best you can, then you will be better prepared for the day that you are going to be on your own.
My family was very disfuntional like yours, and I had to leave home when I was thirteen. I didn't have a job, and I ended up being hungry a lot. ( I once ate unripe green apples for a week out of an orchard and man will that give you the shit's)
Sounds like your'e having to grow up a bit faster than you may want to, but if you can find a job and a place to live, and you make a plan of what you want to accomplsh, then life won't be so hard.
You need to do these things without relying on a guy or anyone else, cause they will always let you down.
The story of a princess kissing a frog, then living happily ever after is just that, a story!
That is not the way it will come together for you in the real world!
Your going to have to count on yourself to get the things you want from life.
Don't think that a boy and a baby will be the answers to your prayers, because you'll most likely loose the boy once you have a baby, and then you'll be left alone to raise a child.
I know that you would not want to raise a kid by yourself and then have to kick the kid out of your house the way your mother wants to kick you out.
Yep. get a job, save your money, find an apartment, and make your own way for a while. Once you get finacially stable, you can then think about furthering your education so that you may find a career.
The first steps are going to be the hardest and there are going to be many nights you will be so alone, but if you set your mind to it, then you will succeed!
I know that it is harder for a young woman, but then you women are a lot stronger than you give yourselves credit for.
I wish you all the best, and I will put my karma on high for you.
Love & Peace,
jwcj
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Posted by jwcj
on 2007-12-07 03:44:39
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