So I haven’t really had a normal blog… yet. So here’s my shot at having a normal blog… if there is such a thing. To summarize a large list of things on my mind:

            Being sick sucks. I know what caused it, and it is my fault. But there aren’t enough damn hours in the day. Because of this I decided to tell my department manager that I would only be available 3 days a week as soon as he can find someone to replace me for that one day… which apparently means he needs to hire one more for our department. I’m assuming someone else had the same idea as me so he’ll be dealing with some rather fun time gaps. Work was hella’ fun tonight. Besides feeling like a bag of shit from being over-worked, over-stressed, and under-rested I had to deal with running grocery, with only me and the new guy. The other kid phoned in sick which made me angry because I can guarantee I’m a lot worst than he is. But fuck him, I made 40 dollars. Half of which will be going towards a shitty writers craft trip I don’t want to go on. 8 dollars to tax and then 12 dollars towards me, which means 12 dollars towards university/ money my parents will borrow from me.

            My tongue feels like I ate glass. But that’s ok, Tim Horton’s hot chocolate burns cured my sore throat… and has now left me with the worst pain possible, eliminating my urge to eat.

            I’ve managed to get 4 hours of sleep each night on average over the past two weeks. This is in part my fault. I get home from work, talk to Ming till I feel like I’m gonna pass out, then I go forth to do a very sloppy job of my homework. I finally went to bed early last night after editing Saehee’s politics paper (and by edit I mean re-write…*ENGRISH*) which is probably a bad thing… I don’t see that helping her in the long run… but she’s the type of girl who would get one bad mark then throw her year… so I’d rather not see her do that too early.

            I need my G2. Driving has been eating me up inside ever since I met that bitch instructor of mine. I’m not nervous about driving, I’m more nervous about actually doing the test. But more so, I don’t really feel like shelling out money on another bill to pay every month. Between giving my useless ass parents money, paying for the gym, paying for my phone, and randomly giving Adam money for gas, I don’t really feel like dumping more cash elsewhere. I suppose me having my G2 would get rid of the whole… giving Adam money for gas… but still. I’m worried I wont be able to afford university. It’s been dawning on me more and more. I don’t want to live at home after this year; I won’t be able to take it. But OSAP doesn’t cover everything… and it’s not free money.

            Speaking of money, after having a long drawn out conversation with Ming the other night about economic instability, I’ve realized that yes, it is very much a scary matter (despite nearly two hours of trying to convince her things would work out and we wont be owned by a depression the year of graduation.) I felt an even stronger pull to the left, favouring the concept of communism despite the voice in my head that yells: “PEOPLE ARE TOO FUCKING STUPID FOR THAT SYSTEM TO EVER WORK” but the idea that everyone works their hardest and gets an equal share of everything still makes me “^.^”. That and I’ve this growing fear that I really won’t be able to put aside enough money to go visit Ming. I’m not going to admit that to myself though, not just yet at least. Everyone needs something to work towards even if the inevitable outcome is just me working extra hours so I can barely scrape by with huge amounts of university debt.

            Well damn, so far this has been  rather long and emo, so lets make this even longer but just a little more happy. Let’s start with the gym. The gym is awesome.  The best way I’ve spent my money in a long time. I feel good going there, I feel great leaving, and the fact that I’ve only been going once a week due to work and me being sick has shown me just how much the gym has improved the way I feel. Because without it, I feel like shit. Beyond this, the gym generally provides itself to be rather entertaining… I spend a good 6 hours a week hanging out with two people I wouldn’t normally spend that much time with: Brian and Adam. As much as I’d like to say I hate Brian, I’ve come to accept that he's a right-wing, crazy war-hungry, womanizer, but there’s also a genuinely nice side to him. On the other hand… Adam’s ok I guess…

            I’m rather pumped to go see Sam Roberts in a month. Going with Fatemeh should be interesting… our friendship sort of sprung out of nowhere and quiet honestly I’m rather surprised to be hanging out with her… about a year ago I barely knew her name, I simply “lol’d” at her height and new she was a friend of Annie’s. Well now that’s changed and yet somehow I’m still going to a concert with her… not that it’s bad… just seems… different. It’s made me look forward to university though, the more strange and interesting friends you have generally the more open-minded you become and the more you actually learn about the world around you.

            And finally, I just wanted to throw out a gartz to Sarah for getting her G2, and let Riley and Bek’s know I miss them.

There we go… a Justin sized blog. I’m not gonna read over it, I’m just gonna post it. Your mess to sort through now suckers! MUAHAHHAA