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Yesterday was unbearable I woke up that morning feeling so low. I called my girl Puffy and said "Big Boi and the kids are fine I just need to cry". Then I broke the hell down I cried long and hard. Puffy just let me cry she said the typical "It's gonna be okay, let it out, just let it out". Then I told her what was going on .
That Char got caught and I hadn't spoke to her in 2 days. Puffy said "This is not really your problem she got caught, she has to deal with that not you, she has the drama not you your home life is good untouched so just step back everything is in her hands now be ready to face the fact that it may be over with you and her".
Now that's not what I wanted to hear I mean everything was sounding all nice and good until she hit me with the last part.
Over
OVER
OVER
We just started it's only been 4 months dayum!!

I wanted to talk to her so bad yesterday and even thought about texting her, e-mailing her but I didn't know if her man would be near or if she didn't go to work and was home with him so I left it alone and then .............................SHE SENT ME AN E-MAIL!!!!!!!!!
her it is

i'm not quite sure what to say, but i'm sorry, i'm sorry for letting marvin get access to my phone and read the message you sent, i'm sorry for slipping up, i'm just sorry. i can't believe i slipped up like that, i never thought that would happen, i can't believe it happened. i was always so careful, i'm so sorry. i don't wanna lose you as a friend, but i gotta lay low for a while til this dies down, me and marvel are talking now, but its still a little rocky. i'm so sorry Frankie.

Char

What does this sound like to you guys?
Does it sound like our affair is over for good?
Does it sound like she wants to still be with me but can't right now?
WHAT?

I replied back and said this

Char stop with the "Sorry" already it's okay (smile) I'm just glad your okay what's done is done and now you just have to work on getting things right at home which I very much understand.
I didn't want to contact you first but then I didn't want you to think I was mad at what went down or that I wasn't concerned about what was going on with you because I was and still am. I want what you want and just want you to be happy.
Your never gonna lose me you know how to find me.

Was that to much what I said?
or
Should I have said more?

Dayum I feel like a lost ............lost........soul!

I spoke with TL who didn't come to work yesterday she went to pick up Face to spend her 2 days off with her. and she told me she spoke with Char and she said "Have you talked to Frankie yet"?
Char "No, I don't know what to say". TL said she just kept saying that she didn't know what to say. I told her about the e-mail Char sent me and she said she doesn't think Head got the phone and gave it to Marvin she thinks Marvin saw her sleeping and decided to snoop. Which is what I thought all along.
Touchy has been calling and e-mailing me but has never once asked about the whole Char situation. TL said she finally asked her ............I wonder .........I just don't buy this whole story but we'll have to see.
I'm doing a lot better today so far .........................