It's Amazing how one person can get so close to you and make you feel on top of the world! First it starts with innocent flirting and then you start dating and he tells how beautiful you are and how much different you are from the rest of the girls. You have so much fun with them when you go out and you feel so comfortable with no make up on and comfy clothes on in front of them. When they touch you electricity shoots through out you. And you swear to your self that he is the one! You have dreams of your wedding and you name your children. When you look into their eyes the word and all its problems go away. You feel so safe in their arms and they PROMISE to NEVER let you go. They promise they will NEVER hurt you. And because you trust them so much and you have given him your heart you believe him. And then

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one day he turns your whole life up-side down. You have been fighting lately but everyone does and you never thought this would happen. But that isn't even his reason. He says it just because you will eventually have to break up. And he asks "Did you really think this was going to last forever?" And that is when your heart breaks. And every cell in your body that once had so much life and love for this person suddenly feels like they are dead. You develop a huge lump in your throat. And your eyes are constantly red from crying. Everyone tells you you will get over it and you want to believe them but this pain just won't go away! And you go on minute by minute of each day, just trying to make it. The pain is numbed and then comes anger. You start asking questions, and that's when you find out that he wasn't the trusting guy you thought he was but that he was going behind your back and flirting with other girls and even dating them! You get furious and you yell at him even though you know it won't make a difference. Eventually the anger goes too. And just when you think you are stable and you can start living again, he comes back... and he begs for forgiveness and he wants you back! But  what do you do? Your heart wants that love back but your head reminds you of the pain he caused. You decline and he promises to come back to you one day and ask you back, He tells you he is changing and that he was so wrog to have ever let you go! At first you don't believe him but as time goes by that part of you that trusts him comes back and you start to believe him...

Then he does it again, he lies and then finds another girls and lies about that too, as if you wouldn't find out. And now you realize how stupid you were for beieving him! You should have just never listened to him and just stopped talking to him for good. And now you are back again to the pain that first started. Granted it isn't as devastating, it still hurts. You want to hurt him You could just scream at the top of your lungs at him. You want to tell everyone how awful of a person he is but you know that isn't the right thing to do so here you are, heartbroken while he is out having fun with girls. Now what... what comes next. Does this ever go away, or will you always be haunted by this first love. You wish you could go back and protect your heart from that boy. You want to make it all go away and it won't. The thoughts of him consume your mind. It sucks!

I'ts intersting how easy and fats it is to fall in love but how much pain and heart break it causes when it is broken. It took no time to fall in love but it seems like forever to get over the end of it.