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I thought wrong

Well, im back in Ruston again. Hooray. Sorry if im not in the least excited about being here, the only thing that makes it bearable is know ing my kittens are here. I have to look into school again soon bc if im not going to tech im coming home. that way ill be closer to all of the people that i love; even those that dont want to love me back right now. I dont know what made you call me the other day, or what made you contact me the entire time i was home all the while refusing to see me. you completely cut me off for over a month and then youre back again and when i say how much i miss you and want to see you youre not having it. I dont get it...yes i do, im lying. I know that if you saw me it would be a wrap. Thats why i wanted to see you so badly. Sorry if that nots playing fair, but i want you back and i know that once you agree to see me, one touch is going to be all it takes. Just one... Getting the opportunity is the problem. I dont know if youre going to go another month or so beofre contacting me, i hope not bc just hearing your voice (even if it wasnt saying what i wanted to hear) somehow made me feel better; not so alone in ways. All of my pleas and arguments as to why we should be together sounded so much better in my head. When i said them aloud to you they sounded so played out and insincere and theres no way to show you how i actually feel like a different person inside now. I guess Ill give you your space and call you in a few days. Im going to try and come home 2x in December, so hopefully ill be able to see you before 2008. I would say on New years, but thats pushing it even though i feel that its very likely for you to have yourself someone to kiss on new years eve whether or not it be myself, so i have to do whatever i possibly can to win back your heart b4 then. We shall see how it goes, eh? i love you and im going to get you back...i hope. well , igotta get to sleep, my love. I will talk to you soon.