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As tears fall onto the pictures that lie stagnant on the floor i try to imagine a child that has been lost, a child that has been forgotten, a child that seemingly has never existed. I die slowly inside knowing I have no child within me. No remembrance of a baby crawling, crying, laughing, talking. I have no first word, no lost tooth, no first birthday. Unknowing of the time i was brought into this world, unsure of my first step. No dreams of becoming an athlete, a firefighter, a superhero. I have no stuffed animal, no baby shoes, no blankie. I struggle to accept that I was never a baby, never a toddler, never a child. I never wore a bib, never got hurt bc i was curious of what might happened if i touched that or climbed this, never made sure to be good bc i knew that santa would be coming soon. I never said "mama" or "dada", never laughed and giggled so angelicly that people wondered whether i had fallen from heaven. I had no smile that could light up a room, or a laugh that reverberated across the entire house. I never had a first day of school, never had a matching backpack and lunchbox, never cried during that first day bc i missed my mommy. I never threw a fit when i didnt get a piece of candy when mommy had to go to the grocery store, never was put in timeout bc i had been a bad boy, nevery yelled and screamed so loud the family made an instant exodus to another room. I never sat in a babychair, or a carseat... |
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Posted by jshemrsn on 2008-08-06 02:54:06 | Rating: | Views: 42
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its really deep...
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Posted by dylancool2
on 2008-08-06 03:56:54
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