Ok.  So I told myself I would never start a blog.  I don't want to put my self out there, especially for the whole world to see.  Well I figure, I'm not that interesting; chances are no one will care what I write.  This blog isn't to get me noticed.  I don't care what anyone thinks of this. 
     There are 3 reasons why I'm starting this blog:
1.)     This blog is for me.  I always write diaries.  I have filled up pages and pages of random babbling in notebooks.  But no one reads those but me.  Hell, chances are no one will read this either but I can pretend that they do.  This is for me to get my message out into cyberspace and release it into the conscious of the universe instead of locked up in my head.  It is also for me to figure out just what my message is going to be. 
2.)     I'm writing to tell the truth about myself.  I never tell the truth to anyone.  My friends can attest to this.  You will never here me say something that isn't somehow concealing what I really think.  Except, of course, when I'm making a joke.  That's when the truth can be seen just bubbling under the surface.  If you know me well enough to recognize it.  And few people do.
3.)     I'm a writer.  Maybe I'm a crappy one, but it is still the only way that I can express myself.  This is like practice for when I'm sitting down to write the Great American novel.  I've made many attempts so far but they all sucked.  I wasn't writing what I know.  Because I don't really know what I know, you know?  So this blog is also for me to figure out just exactly who I am, but more importantly, what I can do.  It's all very existential.
    Well, it's actually a big cliche.  An adolescent girl trying to "find herself", surviving the world, coming to terms with her faults, and breaking through her walls.  But maybe I'm cliche.  What's so bad about that?   We're all a little bit cliche.  And a little bit country and rock-n-roll.