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what is going on?

I have seemed to walk into a trap today. Something is going on, in which I'm not privy of yet, but something is definetly going on.

I have been battling an issue at work about a silly ole changing table. One person twants to build me one, one person tells me we can't due to liability. One person told me to order one, it was essentially done, and it turned out to be broken. Another person takes over because we won't pay until we have a new one, which in turns doesn't work. Long story short...after 2 months I still do not have a changing table at school.

Today, I asked some questions to all involved (which may have been my down fall) because then I get a not so nice email in return. Some of which do not even involve the changing table. For example, the calendar, the days off, and conferences. Now I should mention that this email was not just written to me, but to a number of other people, which is why I say...what is going on?

I'm in fairly good spirits today which may have helped me deal with the mess I walked into. But my feet hurt so badly. More than I could ever imagine they ever would. It's actually all my fault because I continued to wear the shoes that were killing me until i could stand it no longer...but sometimes you have to suffer in the name of fashion.

My mom worries me. Tomorrow she goes to the doctor about the meds they put in her iv last week. Apparently both Katie and I talked to Merilee about mom. Mom joked that fairly soon all 3 of us (meaning Katie, mom, and I) will all be on lexapro. I have to admit that bothered me quite a bit more than i originally let on. I've been doing some research on alchezmers on the web and it doesn't sound like her, but with the family background I can see why she is worried.

Tomorrow night is registration for next year. I am a little anxious about it because at this moment there are only 6 slots available for the morning class, which is what most people want. Last year I had a family line up around 3:30 to get those few precious slots, so I'm wondering what time they will show tomorrow night. My biggest downfall to all of that, is I don't like to disappoint people and I'm afraid there will be a lot of disappointed families. However, I like that families are so excited about coming to BB that they would stand in line for 3 hours for it. I must be doing something right if there is that much excitement building to get in.

6 years ago at this time I was waiting for my miracle. I still had a LONG time to wait and there are days that I wish I could go back and enjoy his babyhood a little bit longer, but that's the miracle of life. It's here for a brief yet fleeting moment and it's gone just as quick. I'm trying very hard to live in the moment instead of living in a past that can no longer hurt me unless I chose to do let it. If I had a million wishes I would grant that same wish to others who had made a mistake and are not able to face it as I wasn't able to for way too long.

Freedom from our past is a dream that everyone should enjoy.