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Not my Fault
Someone needs to slap me across the head as I finally realized it's not all my fault. I'm going to give Linda the letter from Kari as I no longer need that near. I have come to a peace in my own mind that says yes, I did some things that hurt other people. I never intended to......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-01 11:25:36 | Rating:

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Just being me today
I got up too early in my mind (if you believe 8 AM is early) and I believe that my kids felt the same as me as we all sat together on the couch, curled up, half asleep. My husband thought it was so funny that he took a picture of us. He left and the kids and I went swimming. We......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-02 16:21:58 | Rating:

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I've got medicine head!
The older I get and the more medicine I have to take, the more I realize that I can't! I just can't do it! I've known for sometime that I just don't do well taking most mediciations as I have such a low tolerance for them. But somehow, I got about 30 bug bites last night while......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-03 22:10:48 | Rating:

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Bad
Frustrating! The whole day has been frustrating, including the blog I just wrote and then my computer froze! I suppose I should give up for tonight and try again tomorrow....Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-04 22:41:38 | Rating:

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Middle of the night...
Why does 2 AM come and go? As I silently watch the digits pass. My mind is stirring once again Instead of takings it's rest. I wonder as I lie here more What I did today To deserve the pain of black still nights Alone Stillness Darkness Empty For tomorrow comes in a few......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-05 08:38:40 | Rating:

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Nothing special
I'm staring at the screen, deciding what is important enough to record. Could it be the way I'm feeling these days. Nah, I'm tired of that subject. Could it be my plans for the day. Nope, because that would mean I would want to remember a doctor's......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 10:42:00 | Rating:

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Going to the doctor
Another day, another doctor visit, and another NEW medication. Go figure! It's just frustrating when I'm doing the things she is asking of me and still can't figure out what is going on. I have a few new "tricks" to try (or maybe I should say hoops to jump through) I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-06 16:25:32 | Rating:

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Rough
I shared my fears last night, that I was a bit on the edge of ending everything. I know that is quite the contridiction in terms, but it was the first time in a long time that I have felt so low. A LONG TIME! It's not that I really want to end my life, as much as end the......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-07 09:53:39 | Rating:

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It's me...the better me
I meet with my Pastor yesterday and had a nice long walk and talk about how I let the negative tape play through my mind this past week and instead of turning the tape off I believed in it and added more to that chatter. I said things to people that I didn't mean, but wanted to add to......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-09 18:00:33 | Rating:

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Sadness
On Friday, my brother and sister-in-law found out they were pregnant. I guess they were so excited and told our parents that evening. Saturday they that my sister and I would be together and they would tell us at the same time, however they did not realize I wouldn't be there,......Read More