When did the fun of May Day disappear?  I remember as a child running all around the neighborhood trying to give that one last basket to un-suspecting friends and neighbors.  I... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-01 17:40:18
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Up and down That's where my emotions are going these days. Up and down. The Upside: So I went to the broadway performance of Rent last night And it was totally... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-02 22:25:22
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My flower garden is growing Just like I need it to be. I watched it start with only dirt and seeds and air and sun. My life is like those seeds, covered with a blanket.... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-03 21:57:40
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Emotionally i can't do it anymore. I work, I try, I fight and I'm so tired. Talking to those I don't want to. Hiding from those who want me to hide from them. Thanking those who have helped... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-04 22:55:59
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A lot of bad things happened today, somehow they always do. But some amazing things happened as well and those are what I want to remember. 1.  This is teacher appreciation... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-05 17:12:51
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I lay in bed listening the sound of silence Watching the world of darkness The shadows that dance off the moonlight And I wonder if the stars are dancing for me tonight. I watch the... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-05 17:35:15
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Why must he test me? Why must he do it? Why can't he admit those things? Before I hear it from the others? When does it end for us? When do I tell him enough? When will he ever... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-06 12:45:28
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I lost a part of me this morning When I dropped her at the vet. Her big brown eyes asked me why I'm leaving Asking me what she did. Telling myself I'm doing the right thing I'm doing... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-07 15:40:35
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I'm sorry for missing you today. I thought I saw the true you one day And the next it all slipped away. I wanted to continue to hold you for a lifetime But a different path was chosen for... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-08 13:56:47
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May 9 I hate this day May 9 I live this day, everyday. May 9 It was a Tuesday, and yet today is a Friday. May 9 But still wanting it to go away. May 9 Learning how to live with... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-09 23:01:46
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Who am I wondered outloud the other day. I am A wife A caregiver A woman A friend A lover A daughter A sister but my most important role is that which was given to me as a... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-10 22:55:52
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Today I honor my mother As does the rest of the nation. For being my imperfect angel here on earth. For all the wrongs she has done She made up for in 1000 rights. She loves me... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-11 22:11:05
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Much to tired to explain it now But the silence in their presence is starting to wear me down. I hear snapshots of rumors Things I want to know, but then wonder why I... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-12 11:38:42
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I work and work and work some more. She says great job, but you need to do some more. I tell her I'm trying and she says she understands, but what she doesn't say is I have to do it again.... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-13 17:40:44
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I knew this day was coming since the first day we signed her up for dance. And one I've been dreading since the very first day as well. Tonight was the night we got... COSTUMES! ... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-14 20:48:37
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I've come to a realization today...(scary for me I know) But even in the school system...there are 2 types of people. 1. those who want the best for the children 2. those who want the best... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-15 22:45:16
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Today is a good day. I feel it in the air. The sun is shining just for me. The neighborhood is filled with children's laughter. And sounds of lawn mowers and hammers. The sound of the... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-17 12:07:47
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My miracle: 5 weeks ago tomorrow (Monday) I lost my wedding ring. There is an amazing story to how it was found…and God had his hand in every step of it. On the Saturday before I... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-18 23:09:57
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I'm going to try softball again tomorrow and i have to be honest, I'm fairly scared.  i am so pissed off that Jenny made a point to call Melissa to tell her.  When will this end? ... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-19 22:11:53
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The more I go through counseling the more I realize how much I punish myself for the choices in my past.  It's my way, it's what I feel comfortable with, it's what I know. ... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-20 09:06:28
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I'm going to SPEAK the truth one day Even if they cannot hear it. I'm going to SPEAK the truth one day To all that have it coming I'm going to SPEAK the truth one day... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-21 20:59:20
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I think that Mr. Sandman forgot to stop by for a visit For I laid in wait for hours. The world around me was oh so quiet Except the video streaming across my mind. I don't know who had... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-22 08:57:57
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Joe has a twin and it makes me wonder all the time about our genetics.  They are fraternial twins and there are no two people more different?  Joe is handsome, tall, brown eyes, brown... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-24 00:21:25
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Before I had my children, I used to sleep in every day. Now I get to sleep in, but 7 AM is a little earlier than I like Before I had my children watching tv was my own decision Now its... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-24 09:38:40
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The pieces of my puzzle are starting to be filled in. Something that I am even suprised at. As for years and years my table held the pieces mixed up in piles with no one to start the picture.... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-24 23:31:52
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These past few months have been a large learning curve for me in the land of the internet.  I grew up when computers were first being put into classrooms.  I can remember being in 5th... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-25 23:09:17
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He came to visit me today The friend I thought I lost. I put him on a shelf somewhere and I gather he got down. For he snuck around and tapped my shoulder To remind me he's still... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-27 11:47:06
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Fighting through the end of time Or my school year that has been mine. As the teacher of the little one  I struggle to make the lessons fun. For 2 more days we all be together... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-27 22:14:42
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I love my children very much, but tonight I am so tired of dealing with her screaming and his provoking.  I have told them to stop, I've yelled at them to stop.  I've put the both in... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-28 22:24:56
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Proud Day- Today I was a proud mother... of a daughter graduating from preschool. Today I was a proud daughter... as my mom was able to watch me work. Today I was a proud... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-29 22:32:47
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Today it is here... Our celebration of 10 years. Of fights and love. And battles and hugs. I was only 21 when the marriage bug stung. And down the isle I went With my daddy's... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-30 17:28:12
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I'll admit it...I'm scared.  Terrified might actually be a better response to having I'm feeling.  Or is it anxious?  Maybe I was right in the beginning...scared.  That's it,... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-30 22:21:59
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I had a fairly good day today.  I got some work done, in the quietness of the building as I planned for the week with the help of others.  (thank goodness for... Read More
Posted by: jringwald on 2008-05-31 23:28:01
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