I have been told before to let your vocal chords rest.  In the past I have had laryngitis.  I would go for a week with no speaking.  Today I found I should follow that rule for at least the remainder of the day.  Because of my tourette's syndrome and its horrible effects it can have on my throat, my voice today has become a bit scratchy and sometimes breathy.  True, I have not had much water and far too much coffee.  The vocal folds, or chords, are probably dehydrated and need some good rest. 

       It's funny though, as I actually go without saying a word, I am not grunting or making bizarre noises as I normally would.  I guess not speaking or making a sound can't ignite the urge to make those disturbing noises or sounds.  It's even more funny how now that I am silent, my friends don't seem to notice.  Like I have said in a previous entry, they work hard to ignore my noises and tics and grunts, I guess when I choose to say nothing at all, they don't notice because they are still in the "ignoring" mood.  I am sure they will notice soon.  If not, it does not make me angry.  I am blessed to have people who attempt to accept me for what I am.  It takes courage.  I applaud them for it as well. 

      I already feel better for not speaking.  If I can't put what is on my mind into words, then it stays in my mind and grows into deep thoughts which eventually turns into great insight for me either about others or about myself.  I guess you could say being silent for a while is somewhat theraputic.  Interesting.  

      Sometimes I wouldn't mind being silent all the time.  I could have one of those voice box machines like Stephen Hawking.  But then I realize how much I love my voice, and would go crazy if I ever had to lose it.  

     Until next time,

 J.