Well, I am trying to stop my smoking habbits again.  This will be the fifth time I blieve.  I have quit before, but it never lasted, and before I knew it I lit one up, then the second one and so on.  The longest I have gone is two weeks, and that was right after surgery where I could hardly move and was on heavy doses of pain medications.  After that, I felt it best to start up again to fulfill my cravings.

     This time around is different though.  I quit with no cigarette's left at all, unlike last time when they would 'call me' from the bedroom.  This time, I have no cigarette's and though I might have a strong desire to go and buy them, I can feel an even stronger desire along with a voice which says "stop being a slave to that propaganda."  

      My friends, of course, tell me they are proud of me for stopping.  Though they know I have done this before, they will always say they are proud of me for trying even.  They know people who smoke fail at quitting before they actually do quit several times.  I hope this time is my last.  Now that I know why I smoke, I am sure it will be easier to stop myself my spending the money and saying "I am a slave to the cigarette, I have no self control, just walk away."  That is what this smoking information site says to do, whenever you have a craving or urge to smoke, don't tell yourself like every smoker does "its ok, i choose to smoke", but rather see the truth, that you are addicted and need to stop because you DONT have control.

     I know this time will be different.  I will stop.  I will be happy.  I will show my friends they were right, I have what it takes.

      Until next time,

 J.