Can a secret be worth the pain, anger and emotional battle it takes to keep it?  I have a secret I have been hiding.  It is not of any criminal nature, or of any violence.  In fact, my secret serves a purpose.  It gives what I can not. 

     Though I may choose to hold this secret, I do not in any way, shape or form condone lieing to anybody.  I shall confess, I am a liar and a sinner who has hurt others in the past.  I know from experience the best thing to do is tell the truth.  But there is one secret, well many in fact, I have.  But this one secret is very deep for me and will only do harm if I let it out.  

      I sometimes sit alone in the dark and wonder how a man can withhold the truth from those he cares about most.  I am not a bad man.  I have never broken any major law.  Sure, I have broken the law, who has not?  I would and could never treat others with a huge amount of disrespect, though there are those times when I wish I had the courage.  But I am then reminded of the golden rule.  

     If a person has a secret about themself, not a secret of wrongdoings or of any violent behavior towards others, but a secret about their life, their past and their present, then if only releasing that secret would bring emotional suffering and misunderstanding from those of which the person loves, would it be best to allow that link to the entire mystery of that person remain absent?  

      When you think about it, we are all people.  God loves us all and does not punish us for being misled.  Maybe a person is not misled in their decisions, but rather were given their particular identity to test all others of their proclaimed faith and trust.  

     I wish I had all the answers.  I suppose knowing I could never have the answers makes me wise enough.

      Until next time,

J .