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I wish I could tell the people who bother me how I feel. I can't ever seem to do that. Its very sad. I let people walk all over me and I really need to stop. I need to learn how to stand up for myself better. I've been hurt so many times I don't even know who to trust anymore. Anyway that was the first thing on my mind tonight. Today I didn't do much. I had class at 11 and I had to give a report. It was awful I stuttered the whole way through it. Public speaking is something I'm not very good at. Then after class I went to lunch with some friends. That cheered me up a bit because I've been having guy problems lately. I have never had a decent relationship in my life. Now I'm single and I wish I had someone. The guy I likes doesn't like me. That wouldn't be so bad but I'm very lonely right now. I try to think positively but its hard when all my friends have their boyfriends and I'm alone. I guess I will find someone someday. Tomorrow shouldn't be too bad. I'm trying to stop procrastinating. It causes too much stress. I'm going to go watch some tv and try to be happy.

Posted by jlynn456 on 2007-10-23 19:28:10 | Rating:

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		You're fresh in college and feeling bad cuz friends have boyfriends and you don't. What is any different than high school other than the class set up? You're just getting started in the next phase of life...give yourself time. Or, do Geminis need to be with someone 24-7? I have not had A relationship my entire life and am far older than you. I struggled to make friends and had a bunch who were mainly friends for what we each had, not who we were--and they would change to be friends with others--leaving me on the bench. Don't make me come over there and shake you senseless. I am not sure what to do with Geminis...much less dragon years(chinese). Oh, maybe you'd be interested in looking into your astrology--might give you some answers. If not, just chillax and go with the flow--keeping up with duties--til the right one/s come along(or go after them yourself--as people tell me to). shrugs sigh. I think once you come to a lil inner peace, the whole public speaking and the rest will come together. Also, if you are prone to a lil stage fright--which is not common among Geminis--try a few mouth flapping exercises before speaking(alot of actors supposedly do it to shake jitters out). Also, FOCUS. Not on others but the task at hand. It takes practice. When it seems someone might be trying to use you as a doormat, flap your attitude in their face. Reject them before they can lay out the offer. Say "I know what you're trying to do....I'm not interested. Go away." Think about it.
Posted by brainstormer on 2007-10-23 20:06:18


		If I didn't know better I would have thought I was reading something I wrote. You said everything I felt, and still feel sometimes, a short while ago. You will be happier when you are happy with yourself, sticking up for yourself is a good start. People will continue to walk over you, until they see that you won't let them. Even if it is just picking the movie you and your friends are going to see, start getting your opinion out there. Don't let others dictate what you do or say. The right person will come along for you. Having more confidence in yourself and being comfortable with yourself might help alleviate the loneliness. And it can help in your relationships. Now the public speaking thing I have no advice for. I am still struggling with it, something about standing infront of people and speaking makes me so self-conscious. Good luck with everything.
Posted by Amalgamation on 2007-10-26 13:50:08