excuse my typing spelling what not> i am without a hand. somehow i went from healthy, beutiful to almost dead and in danger of having my arm amputated. this remains a mystry. they will give me hardly any pain meds because they think its drugs. i'm dead inside they say i could be in this horribke room for months. im lost. im in agony.... so much more to write yet the writing hurts so very much. let this be my first entry. the book shall prevail. i shall find love.