Way way back, I kept on saying “destiny will lead me to him” .. That was way back. I actually have been one of those who kept distance from getting any romantic relationship with someone. I actually am scared of being left behind & scared to need someone.

I was actually having a hard time recovering from a wounded heart because I took the risk.. And see? Risk takers really lose battles and I do not have the heart to always be brave and stand up for what I think is correct.

Now, I look back to those days when I cried.. Crying over spilled milk, they say, I just realized that despite and in spite of the disappointments and hurts, they were actually contributors for our growth.  Growth, I believe is also inevitable as it is volitional. We have to will to learn. 

We may think that we do things repeatedly and we do the same mistakes all over again but I guess learning won’t take place if we are stubborn to what we should learn. I am scared of the idea that I will just be spending time with the wrong one if i gamble.  I always rationalize. I always OVER ANALYZE but it is still not enough because no matter how i tried to not make the same mistake again, I kept on stumbling down.

Isn’t it enough to be nice to people who have scarred us? I always inculcate in my mind that i should not deprive them of forgiveness. I am not a saint but much as i can, I want them to feel loved though it may have been always perceived in different ways.

When we say LOVE? How far can we possibly go for it? Do we just love because of the excitement of having someone when you’re lonely? Can you possibly love without investing any effort for that person? I still think that love isn’t enough when you don’t act on it.