its a poem thats really about me. well its not really a good poem. parts of what i write in it are but other parts i could not find the write way to say what i needed to....
my life. im not writing on the things i did today
but on how im feeling inside my head. 
my head i so full of nonsence and things id like to do.
some of them exceptable others deinable.
 but hear on this sreen i will type the truth.
my life isnt a lie. i will say what i believe,
but there are things that i still keep inside.
my dad will ask.. you like some guy hun?
and i say nope. but i think that could be a lie.  
i think im afriad to be let down or shuned
but in truth im the one doing the shunning
im the one who runs and hides.
guys can see it. but i just deny.
i want wat happy couples want but why?
i dont know
i like the thought of having someone as your best friend for life
not the guy you may like for a day and then throw away.
but some one who cares for you right back
this has happened to me before.
im scared and insecure
but one day maybe someday
ill have what i want
one day ill be bold and up front.
one day ill tell him the truth
at least some day i hope to