Thoughts.com Blogs - NOTHING LIKE YOU!

I CANT SEEM TO MAKE YOU UNDERSTAND I AM NOTHING LIKE YOU AND NEVER WILL I ATTEPT TO BE. YOU ARE NOT THE PERSON I LOOK UP TO OR THE PERSON WHO STOOD BY ME.
HOW CAN YOU LOVE ME WHEN YOU DONT EVEN KNOW ME. YOU NEVER STOPPED TO LOOK AT ME. YOU SHOVED ME AWAY AND SHUT THE DOOR AS I SLEPT OUTSIDE ON YOUR FRONT PORCH.
   ANGER? YES ITS THERE IT SEEPS OUT OF MY EYES AND PORES. IT IS WHERE MY HEART SHOULD BE. WHAT DID I DO TO YOU, SHIT I WAS YOUNG I KNEW NO BETTER. YOU SHOULD OF TAUGHT ME AND LOVED ME AND PROTECTED ME INSTEAD YOU IGNORED ME AND PUSHED ME UNTIL THERE WAS NOTHING LEFT OF ME.
    THE LIFE YOU GAVE ME WAS GODS BLESSING AND YOU SPIT IN HIS FACE WITH THE CARE AND HANDLING OF A CHILD WHO NEEDED YOU.
WHO ARE YOU AND WHAT DO YOU WANT MY LOVE MY SOUL??? I LEFT IT WHEN YOU WALKED AWAY AND THOUGHT I WAS OLD ENOUGH TO BE A WOMAN ON MY OWN. I DIDNT KNOW. USED AND ABUSED AND PUSHED AROUND. LIFE HAS PUT ITS MARK ON ME AND NOW YOU WANT TO COME AROUND. LIFE IS MY MOTHER AND MY STRONG WILL MY FATHER AND YOU, WELL YOU ARE NOTHING BUT AT FIGMENT OF MY PAST.
   I HAVE GROWN INTO A WOMAN WITH A PAST ONE THAT COULD OF BEEN AVOIDED AND YET IT MADE ME WHO I AM TODAY. THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE STRONG MIND TO BE WHO I AM EVEN IF IT COST ME SO MUCH. I STILL COULD OF MADE IT IF YOU WOULD OF BEEN WHO YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO BE BUT I HAD TO TAKE THE LONG ROAD AND NOW I AM A WOMAN THAT HAS NOTHING INSIDE TO GIVE. I AM NOT YOU AND I WILL NEVER ATTEMPT TO BE. YOU KEEP YOUR LOVE AND YOUR SORRYS. I HAVE MOVED ON AND MADE MY LIFE WHAT IT IS. MY KIDS WILL KNOW ME AND LOVE ME AND THAT IS HOW IT IS. I WILL BE THERE WITH EVERYTHING I HAVE TO GIVE, YOU TOOK IT FROM ME BUT I GATHERED UP MY ANGER AND NOW IT IS A MISSION TO SHOW YOU WHAT A REAL MOTHER IS TO DO. GOOD TIMES AND BAD I AM A MOTHER OF LOVE, TRUST, FAITH AND SUPPORT YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A MOTHER WHO GOD HAS USED TO GIVE SOME CHILDREN LIFE. I AM NOTHING LIKE YOU AND I WILL NEVER ATTEMPT TO BE. I AM ME AND WHO I AM DOES NOT REFLECT AN IMAGE OF YOU!!!