View Blog  HE DOESNT KNOW WHO HES MESSING WITH!!    WELL I WAS READING THROUGH SOME OTHER PEOPLES BLOGS AND RAN INTO ONE THAT BROUGHT UP SOME FEELINGS THAT I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING WITH THE PAST 2 TO 3 MONTHS NOW, SO I THOUGHT I WOULD GET THEM OUT.   I HAVE BEEN MARRIED SINCE AUG. 18TH OF 2007 AND I HAVE BEEN WITH MY HUSBAND GOING ON 4 YEARS NOW. WELL I HAPPEN TO BE TRYING TO GET INTO MY MYSPACE AND HIS POPPED UP SO I LOOKED. YES I HAVE TRUST ISSUES AND THEY STEM FROM WAY WAY BACK, BUT THE THING IS HE IS MY HUSBAND SO THERE SHOULD BE NOTHING IN HIS MYSPACE I CANT SEE, SAME FOR MINE. I HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE. SO ANYWAY I LOOKED. OMG WHEN I SAY ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE THAT NIGHT IT BROKE LOOSE. IT WAS FEB 15TH. THIS MAN HAD BEEN SENDING COMMENTS AND MESSAGES SINCE 2 DAYS BEFORE MY WEDDING AND 1 DAY AFTER MY WEDDING. OK OK SOME OF YOU MAY THINK OOOOOOH BIG DEAL A COMMENT, THESE WERE NOT JUST COMMENTS THEY WERE VERY XXX-RATED IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. AND A FEW OF THEM WERE TO HIS EX GIRLFRIEND. NOT TO MENTION I ASKED HIM WHEN WE WERE DATING WHAT HIS DEF. OF CHEATING WAS SO THIS IS GOING OFF OF "HIS" DEF. NOT MINE. SO YEAH HIS ASS CHEATED. ANY WAY I WENT DEEPER INTO HIS MESSAGES. HIS ASS HAD BEEN TALKING TO ABOUT 3 FEMALES WHO LIVE IN THE SAME TOWN AS WE DO MIND YOU WE LIVE IN A PRETTY SMALL TOWN. SO THESE BITCHES ARE LOOKING AT ME LIKE IM A JOKE BECAUSE I AM THINKING I HAVE A GOOD MAN. HA HA FUCKEN HA! NOW WE HAVENT EVEN BEEN MARRIED A YEAR. SO THIS MAN TELLS ONE WOMAN HE WANTS TO MEET UP WITH HER WHEN HER SON HAS HIS BOWLING COMP. SO HE ASKS THE TIME AND DAY. YEAH I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS SHIT. HE HAD ALREADY ASKED HER WHAT KIND OF PANTIES SHE IS WEARIN AND IF SHE WAS HOT AND WET FOR HIS ASS, HE KNEW SOME SHIT THEY COULD BE DOING IF HE WAS THERE AND THEY COULD DO IT ALL NIGHT. NOW THAT POST WAS ON VALENTINES DAY. HMMMM HE CAME HOME FROM WORK AND TRIED TO GET ASS FROM ME THAT NIGHT SO THAT MADE ME EVEN MADDER. LET ANOTHER BITCH GET YOU HARD AND EXPECT ME TO COOL YOU OFF. WELL I WAS REALLY SICK THAT NIGHT SO HE DIDNT GET NONE BUT GUESS HOW PISSED OFF I WOULD OF BEEN IF I HAD. ANYWAY MY FIRST REACTION WAS TO TAKE OFF MY RINGS PACK UP MY KIDS AND BOUNCE AND YEP THAT IS WHAT I DID. I PACKED UP AND WENT TO A FRIENDS HOUSE FOR THE NIGHT. HE GOT OFF OF WORK AND CAME HOME TO AN EMPTY HOUSE. NOW HE CALLED EVERYONE IN MY PHONE BECAUSE I LEFT IT BEHIND I KNEW HE WOULD CALL IT SO I LEFT IT. WELL THE FRIEND I WENT TO IS BOTH OF OUR FRIENDS SO HE MADE HIS WAY THERE AND BEGGED AND PLEADED FOR ME TO COME HOME HELL NO I WASNT GOING TO COME HOME KISS MY ASS. I HAVE BEEN THROUGH A LOT OF SHIT IN MY LIFE SO TO BE A BITCH CAME EASY TO ME. I GAVE THIS MAN MY LIFE AND A CHILD AND THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY ME. SO ANYWAY HIS ASS WENT HOME ALONE THAT NIGHT. HE GAVE ME ITS NOT LIKE THAT WE ARE JUST FRIENDS AND WERE JOKING AROUND SPEECH, DUDE PLEASE DO I LOOK LIKE A LITTLE GIRL TO YOU. I HAVE MORE GAME THEN YOU EVER WILL DONT PLAY ME. SO I WENT BACK HOME AND I DIDNT WEAR MY RINGS FOR LIKE 3 WEEKS. HE DIDNT SLEEP IN OUR BED FOR LIKE 4 WEEKS. WE FINALLY WORKED IT OUT. AND ALL WAS COOL NOT EVEN A MONTH LATER I FOUND A NEW POST TO A NEW GIRL AND NOT JUST ANY GIRL SHE WAS MY HAIR DRESSER. SO WE FOUGHT AGAIN AND I TOLD HIM THERE WONT BE A 3RD TIME. I SHOULDNT OF EVEN LET THERE BE A 2ND TIME. I PUT ALL MY TRUST INTO HIM THE DAY WE SAID I DO AND HE FREAKIN SLAPPED ME IN MY FACE WITH IT. SO NOW HE IS WORKING ON GETTING HIS TRUST BACK. I WILL SAY THIS AS MUCH AS I LOVE HIM AND WANT MY FAMILY TO WORK. I WILL NOT LET HIM WALK ALL OVER ME. MY MOTHER HAS BEEN MARRIED 4 TIMES AND MY SISTER IS YOUNGER THEN ME AND BEEN MARRIED 3 TIMES AND MY BABY SISTER JUST GOT A DIVORCE, SO TO SOME PEOPLE I MAY BE A DUMMY BUT TO ME I HAVE TO MAKE MY FAMILY AND MARRIAGE WORK I HAVE TO TRY BEFORE I JUST SAY OK SCREW IT IM OUT. I HAVE TO TRY BECAUSE UNLIKE MY FAMILY I WILL NOT MARRY AGAIN. I NEVER WANTED TO GET MARRIED IN THE 1ST PLACE BUT HE WAS UNLIKE ANY MAN I HAD EVER DATED AND HE WAS GREAT, BUT NOW I SEE ALL MEN HAVE A WEAKNESS AND WOMEN SEEM TO BE THEIR DOWN FALL.MY HEART IS STILL HEALING AND MY SOUL IS CRUSHED. THERE IS AN ANGER INSIDE OF ME THAT I HOLD ONTO FOR FEAR OF WHAT IT MIGHT DO. MY TEARS FALL WHEN NO ONE IS THERE AND MY TRUST IS NO MORE. ITS SAD TO SAY BUT ITS A WORK IN PROGRESS HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO FORGET THE PAIN AND MOVE ON? THERE IS NO TIME LIMIT AND IT WILL SETTLE AT THE BOTTOM OF YOUR HEART AND A SINGLE WORD WILL BRING IT BACK TO THE SURFACE.YOU SAY TO TALK ABOUT IT BUT WHEN TALKING GETS YOU NO WHERE BUT BACK AT THE START WHY TALK! I FOLLOWED MY HEART AND IT TOLD ME TO STAY JESS YOU HAVE TO TRY TO MAKE IT WORK. YOUR FAMILY IS YOUR LIFE AND YOUR VOWS SAY FOR BETTER OR WORSE, YET I BELIEVE HE COMMITED A SIN WITH IN GODS EYES AND DEF. MINE. ILL KEEP MY HEAD UP AND PRAY FOR HELP!!! I AM NOT ONE TO FORGIVE AND FORGET BUT AGAIN IT IS FROM WAY WAY BACK. HE WILL EITHER DO AS HE SHOULD AS A HUSBAND OR HE WILL BE ALONE WITH HIS OTHER WOMEN WHO SEEM TO KEEP HIM HAPPY. IF I CANT DO IT MAYBE THEY CAN..... WHO KNOWS BUT I AM AT A POINT OF NOT GIVING A SHIT HE WILL MAKE UP HIS MIND OR I WILL DO IT FOR HIM. IM NOT A TOY AND WILL NOT LET HIM PLAY WITH ME AS IF I AM. I STAND ON MY OWN 2 FEET AND I KNOW I AM A STRONG WOMAN I JUST HOPE HE KNOWS IT BEFORE IT IS TO LATE.       Posted by jessfreethinkin on 2008-05-08 12:51:02 | Rating: | Views: 65   Email This to a Friend   Friend's Email *    Friend's Name*    Your Name*    Security code*    Refresh Image        Bookmark: Delicious  Digg  Reddit  Facebook  StumbleUpon    Permalink:      Blog Comments    I know how you feel. My wife was texting and meeting this guy for a few weeks now. I guess we are in the process of trying to work thing out, or at least I hope. I still love her very much. I still think she is the right girl for me.. Posted by  jensmith0423  on 2008-05-11 18:18:48     Sometimes I think these on line comment flirting relationships, although I have never had one, are from really lonely or very bored people. They usually are all talk and no action. But, seems like something is missing in his life. First of all, he should spend his time on other things and stay away from the computer for awhile, a long while, you could do something together, take dance lessons or play cards or checkers...take up a hobby, do something with your baby, you get my drift...good luck...I hope he learned his lesson. Posted by  roe  on 2008-05-19 20:41:24  Would you like to comment?     (Maximum characters: 5000)     You have characters left.      Security code:                                                     Refresh Image

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