I'm 24 years old and I've been married for 2 years.  I have recently come to grips with some problems that have been persistant in my relationship with my husband and I fear that I am at the point of no return.  I have always been a loyal person but I do have a limit like everyone else and I'm afraid I'm there now.  I just don't know what to do.  I have always been like this in my relationships- I'll take it up to a certain point and then once I realize I don't have to accept this I'm done.  There is absolutely nothing you can say to stop me from breaking it off- nothing!  And I usually take a lot of crap before I get to this point because I want to make sure that this is what I want.  Let me get to my point...My husband has done some stuff that I've never experienced before so I didn't know how to react.  I don't want to be too detailed but lets just say I'd be pretty suprised if he hadn't cheated (physically) on me yet.  He claims he hasn't but how will I ever know for sure?  Just this past year (the worst yet) I found an internet sight he signed up for saying that he was "looking for a discrete relationship with a woman" in our area.  I was crushed.  Heartbroken.  There weren't any messages/ emails and no activity and he claims he wasn't going to do anything he was just curious.  Bull...  I feel like I'm still in the same situations, I feel like I'm just waiting here until he actually does cheat on me in order to leave.  However, this past couple weeks, it hit me.  I've been very worried that this day would come and it did.  I stopped caring.  I shut myself off completely from him and he knows it.  There's only so many times I can hurt like this before I shut down and I'm here.  I'm beginning to live my life carelessly and enjoying every moment.  I'm so sick of being on the other side, for once, I'm going to live free of worry and go where the wind takes me without regret.