So what about now? I think about Jen everyday but not with the burning I used too. Now I just wish she would leave me alone. I guess I never told you about the very last time I actually saw Jen. It was at another one of Jake's parties. Jake is the guy who I watched take Jen away, take jen to his room. This time she was mad at Jake because like every guy shes ever been with he wants nothing more to do with her. She was just a jem in his crown, a one night achievment. She was drunk as usual and I didnt have the willpower to ignore her. She asked me if I wanted to go to sleep with her. I said "no". She said "good." and walked away. I left that party confident that some other guy would get in her pants that night.

After that I left facebook for a couple months. I just couldnt stand seeing even her picture. Now Im back on facebook after a 4 month hiatas. Jen has messaged me asking where the hell I've been. I asked her how she was and she just told me how anxious she was to get out of here. I dont expect ot here from her but Ill tell you that if she lays one hand on my little brother, who is also a freshman at U of M, well actually i dont know what i would say. "hey remember that one time over a year ago when you and I kissed and now your sleeping with my brother, WTF?" I dont think I have a very strong claim. Ill just hope the two of them never meet.

But Ashley has also emailed me back. she gave me her number and said shed love to go to coffee. I think im excited, i know im scared.