So I called ash yesterday and basically said we cant be friends I still feel for you and I cant stand being around you as just a friend knowing your going home to someone else tonight. Yes I KNOW this is very selfis

Goddamit when will i learn. The girl i care about is with another guy. I just need to accept that. So now im between a rock and a hard place. She is great to talk to and I really do Love seeing her. If we could just be friends like I guess she wants then that would be fine. But we can't. We...

Its a vent for me this blog, I write down whats in my head and then it doesnt haunt me anymore. Its gunna be how i deal with things

heres the cards

So I just called ASHLEY and she said she j

Again I just treat this blog as I would a therapy session...so here it goes

First off: why is it that this blog and microsoft word all set new paragraphs two lines down? Is this some new writting convention that I have not yet heard of?

Ok so I guess I'll deal.

backround in my entry: notes from underground

I need to get it all out there so im going to treat this like a therapy session.

 Well the girl i asked out to coffee, who i met at my party, hasnt replied yet. its been long enough to abandon reasonable hope. The...

I am a sick man. This is how the Russian novelist Dostoevsky started Notes from Underground. It is the story of a tormented man's thoughts. I could think of no better way to start my own journal of biting

so last time I blogged I had a big date with Ashley that evening. A lot has happened since then.

the date itself went really well. (Im having a hard time with the will to type this but i know it will

So what about now? I think about Jen everyday but not with the burning I used too. Now I just wish she would leave me alone. I guess I never told you about the very last time I actually saw Jen. It was at another one of Jake's parties. Jake is the guy who I watched take Jen away, take...

It was just over a year ago and I found myself very drunk and at a party. I have a habit of leaving parties to "get some fresh air." Really I leave because I cant stand being that close to so many people

Ok set the scene: After a HEAVY night of drinking, me, my best friend, and his sister are all walking back from the student ghetto and stop...

Hi everyone,

I'm using this site to keep track of my thoughts. the site name sounded appropriate. So im 20 years old, going to college, living on my own, and I have never had a girlfriend. ever, not even close. Not that I was never asked out in high school or that Im a...