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Chandler & I

Monday July 14th, at around 4am. My boyfriend of 7 months, going on 8 months left for boot camp. Last time I heard his voice was on Monday at midnight. Last time I felt the warmth of his skin, was Sunday at around 10pm. Its so difficult to be without him. I love him so much. I cant wait until I hear his voice again, so I can tell him how much I love him. How much I miss him. How much he means to me, and how I am starting to go a little crazy without him.

Our relationship started out a little rocky. We went out probably the week after thanksgiving. Due to the things he would tell me, he was not my type, but as usual it would not stop me from being friends with him. He would tell me things such as he would go out to clubs, get super drunk, and begin making out with random people. He told me how much he enjoyed making out with random people. As I got to know him, i figured out it was all just a front. It was just something he would tell people so they would not try and get close to him. I got close though, and he got close to me. I was so nervous the first time we went out. When he tried to kiss me, i was shocked. Probably because i was not expecting it. I found him extremly attractive, and i felt he would never be attracted to me. I was wrong though. As time went by, we got closer, and we fell in love. We "officially" became a couple on 1/1/08. I was so happy to tell everyone that he, Chandler, was my boyfriend.

The past few months have been amazing. We did everything we wanted to do before he left. We went to Disneyland, Disney's California Adventure, Six Flags Magic Mountain, Sea World, San Diego Zoo, Wild Animal Park, Beach, went out on a boat, saw Wicked in LA, and spent the night at an amazing hotel. We had an amazing time. I would not have traded it for anything. The only thing I regret, is not spending more time with him. I regret arguing with him over stupid little things. We should just have been happy, and not argued about little dumb things. I love this boy. I miss him so much.

Its barely the 2nd day of his bootcamp, during his first week. I dont know when i will hear from him. I dont know wheather or not he has forgotten about me. I dont know if he is thinking about me, if he misses me. If he will be faithful. I dont know anything. When I told him I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I meant it. I still mean it. I know were young. He is 20, and im 23. I know we should be dating around and seeing "whats out there" aka sleep around. But were not like that. I'm a relationship type person. I'm a one man type of guy. I enjoy giving my heart and body to one guy and one guy only. I found an amazing guy to give all of me to.

Every morning, when I wake up, I open my blinds and just look up at the sky. I blow him a good morning kiss EVERYDAY. I know he's looking up at the exact same sky I am, so I know he got my kiss to him. Every night I look up at the night sky. I admire the stars and how bright and beautiful they are. I look up at the moon. Remembering he's looking at the exact same night sky, I blow him a goodnight kiss. I know i'll see him again soon. I cant wait to hold him in my arms again.