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Mkay, so today was pretty life changing. Mostly for the best. Some may not see it now, but I see hope in the near future. And I know I must have said that so many times in past blogs, but this is good/fantastic/any other word of greatness. Things have been said and done, and it's all changed. But in a way it's all the same? Haha, life is art. Really. ANOTHER one of my corny thoughts: Life is a canvas. You ALWAYS accidentally have one little streak of paint that you absolutely do not like. You can't erase it, but you know you have to do something to fix the way it looks. And that's exactly how it is. Some may not like what I'm about to say, but here it goes. Fck the eating disorder. I know, I know, I'm still going to struggle with it for the rest of my life. Once you've had it, it lingers. But screw that. That's not the way to think. God's got my back. I can overcome anything. And the things with Austin. I'm going to have a talk with him. I'm not breaking things off, but I'm setting things straight. NO smoking. That's just one, but it's major. Oh boy. If only we knew. The things we, as humans, think are major. They're only the beginning. I love how my life always finds some way to threaten my way of thinking. I like the person I have made of myself. I love that I'm sooooo much of a screw up, that I screw up so many times and one mistake fixes the other. It's God's work. Only He could find the slightest bit of greatness in such a mistake. Haha, so I admit, I'm on a caffeine rush, and it's like 1 something in the morning, and I'm in a terrific mood. 1) I managed to give my friend, Marissa, hope in a time where she'd felt her life was ending. And there isn't a person in the world who'd understand how much I LOVE giving people hope. It gives me purpose. 2) I've spoken up about something I've waited sooo long to get off my chest. 3) My faith has grown. Like, more than a few inches. Bahaha, more like yards. And the amount of yards that it's grown would be in the millions. I've been sitting here, praying that everything is going to work out. That everyone will be happy with each other and tomorrow, will not be the way it has been. God's got that checked off. I can feel it. 4) I got my friend, Marissa, into KLove. For those of you that don't know what that is, you should google it and check it out. You won't be disappointed. 5) Haha, Marissa totally cheered me up when she told me that I remind her of Jayne. And just a review; B Jayne Lynds is the one I look up to. More than anyone. She's the faithful/beautiful/inteligent/successful/diligent person that EVERYONE needs in their life. And I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if I failed to mention her strength. She's the bomb digity. She doesn't EVEN know the start of it all. If you don't know her, then you're missing something wonderful. And if there's one person in the world who can show me God's work in ways I can understand, it's her. I love her for that. She knows it, and I know she loves me back. 6) Everything is falling into place. I see it already. For that, I thank God.
Haha, so, I just ran out of my Diet Coke, and I know for sure the green tea is calling my name. Seeing as how, when it comes to drinks, I'm a health freak (the diet coke was a one time thing. lol), and I don't add sugar to green tea, we all know how that'll end (with me crashing right here at my computer.) So I should be off before that happens. So this is for sure one of the longest blogs I've writen in a while. But I like it. I can see myself in it, instead of just writing it. Haha, I'm outyyy. PEACE.
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Bj lynds IS THE BOMB! Haha Bj lynds........firemen..........it all makes sense now!!!!!! Hahahaha ily!!!
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Posted by alwaysstressedund...
on 2008-09-08 22:13:44
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