They wont. They might miss me at first but than they would get over it.

I dont have a future and i cant stand anything anymore.

You have a problem with family noticing your real problem... welcome to the club...

Wow these comments make me feel great. not. Im not crying over it every day. I have severe depression and anxiety. I just write about how I feel.

There is one theme in your posts and that is that you're not getting attention (in your words..help) from your family. Have you ever tried to get attention by doing well in sports, art, school, etc? What have you tried and been successful at? Do you get ignored a lot at home? Is there someone else in your family who takes everyone's time/focus? Which leaves no time/attention for you? Just trying to help you figure things out....I dunno....I don't know you..but I know how it feels to want/need help and not get it. I am just glad that you are writing things out. I can see you are full of pain. Where does it come from?

There is one theme in your posts and that is that you're not getting attention (in your words..help) from your family. Have you ever tried to get attention by doing well in sports, art, school, etc? What have you tried and been successful at? Do you get ignored a lot at home? Is there someone else in your family who takes everyone's time/focus? Which leaves no time/attention for you? Just trying to help you figure things out....I dunno....I don't know you..but I know how it feels to want/need help and not get it. I am just glad that you are writing things out. I can see you are full of pain. Where does it come from?