Thoughts.com Blogs - Bored To Death

I don't know why I'm like this. I easily get bored with the routine. I quit my previous job because of the usual unexciting schedule I had and right now, I'm contemplating for another letter of resignation to be tendered due to the same old reason, I'm bored to death!

At first, it was like, wow, this is really cool but as time goes by, I found that it doesn't anymore fascinate me or something. I have dreamt of becoming an educator when I was a kid probably because of my admiration to my father but I guess that was just the typical reaction of a daughter who admires her father who is a teacher. "Teaching" is the noblest profession here in the Philippines. And I believe I was just a bit influenced by that Oriental idea that's why.

To teach is cool and to be a trainer in one of the call centers is even more challenging supposed to be, just like the broadcasting job that I gave up. However, I just can't seem to find enjoyment with the daily routine. Everyday must be a new day but is always regarded as an ordinary day. You wake up and find yourself doing the usual thing. It excites me no more. I no longer find myself exerting effort to excel in because I'm all wrapped up with boredom. I don't see any challenge and neither do I view a simple change or betterment. I can't sense the rush of my adrenaline. I feel stagnant. I feel immobilized. I feel dead.

I have nothing against the company of course. This company that first gave me a call center experience is one of the most outstanding contact centers in the country, well-performing and has a good management, competitive and fast-growing. I'm just craving for something that will make my nerves up and put me in high spirits just like the jobs of Sidney Bristow in "Alias," Jane Smith in "Mr. and Mrs. Smith, Gracie Hart in "Ms. Congeniality" or the ladies in "Charlie's Angels," "So Close," and "Naked Weapon". Whew! You got it, I want to be a secret agent, undercover, a spy or probably a hired assassin (?) but definitely not a suicide bomber. Duh! I don't want to risk my life for something that's unadorable. I just want excitement and action and to accomplish different kind of missions and be a hero, but not superhero! (That's too much I guess!) How I wish I could land in a job such as those. FBI, hire me!

If only I have the qualities to be one, I would have been one of the most reputable undercover agents in the world. (Please don't get me wrong. hehe!) Unluckily, I don't know any kind of martial arts, don't know how to hold a gun and don't know how to shoot. So, let's just leave it as one of my frustrations.

Another profession that fascinates me and certainly won't be listed as one of my frustrations is being a writer. I thank God, I know how to write. Contrary to my above-mentioned dream job that requires adventure, writing engages into deep thinking and concentration and it amuses me! It's contrasting but that's how I love it. I am both a fan of action and solitude just like my fondness to aerobics and yoga. Others may find writing too dreary but somehow provides satisfaction to all who will indulge into it. It gives one the power to manipulate the characters if it's a novel or a short story. It bestows someone the courage to speak out his thoughts and furnishes an individual the might to defy wickedness. Isn't it gratifying?

Writing is cool and never does it bore me. If I can't find a job that is equally tremendous as it does, I'll just stick to it, make the most out of my pen and be like Shakespeare! :D