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| Irony and Contradiction. Oh dear. |
Here's the thing: I am falling for DJ.
And the other thing: I don't know what to say everytime he says a.) he was thinking of me b.) he misses me and c.) he misses my voice (we talk through the phone most of the time.)
Believe me, everytime he says one of the three, I friggin' blush while holding the phone and I avoid sounding like Lisa Simpson in The Simpsons Movie when she one day had met the boy of her dreams (swooning on the floor while making gushy, repressed sounds of delight. just kill me now.).
I dunno. I think I can't say "i miss you too" or "i thought about you too'" or "i think about you every fuckin' day and I miss talking to you about everything and nothing just so I could hear your voice" without thinking that I might jinx what we have right now. Urgh. Should bang head with frying pan.
He is the guy I've always been writing about in my diary, the one I've been asking the friggin' Universe to help me find and even though he's not who I expected, I'm pretty damn sure I found him.
Whyyyy is it so hard for me to make myself emotionally vulnerable?? whyy??
P.S. I will avoid going to the mall until Valentines fever and promotions is over. Seriously getting sick of the hearts, cupids, the color red, candies and chocolates, and people giving you unsolicited advice on the best things to do on effin V Day. I haven't told DJ how much I despise this time of Feb, but I should tell him soon. For I fear he'll ask me to be his Valentines and THAT's when I know I really wouldn't know what to do. Or say for that matter.
P.P.S.
Was suppose to grab a blizzard at Dairy Queen two days ago but backed away from the store when I saw that it had been injected by Valentines steroids.
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Posted by jadedsecret on 2009-02-08 11:27:06 | Rating: | Views: 34
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