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It isn't as hard as you may think. I just redirect myself the hardest part was waking up and knowing I can't have a smoke. Morning time was my smoke time. I would wake up and have about 3-4 before I could even get motivated to do anything let alone get 2 kids ready fro school. LOL So today I made the coffee and took my mental meds and just chilled ok ok I paced waiting for my coffee. Once I got that (my coffee) the world seemed not so bad. Someone called me to take a survey about smokers and it felt good to say 'I'm not a smoker', I didn't add anymore, it's no one biz but my own that it's almost 24 hours since I have smoked. I don't really have a desire for a smoke it's more of a habit of something to do with my hands. Last time I was in the hospital for 3 days I didn't have a patch or anything with nicotine in it to ease anything I didn't have any cravings or anything I was focused on trying to breathe. Which is what I am doing now just focusing on breathing. I hope in a couple of weeks I can take that stupid test (lung function) and it will show I am using more then 30%. Maybe by not smoking I can get it to 50% wouldn't that be awesome! I know that in 48 hours all nicotine is out of your body and that the rest is up to you as to if you smoke or not. 3 days is it. After that it comes down to habit. If you can't break the cycle you'll never quit. I did break it for over a yr then I was out in the hospital again and was freaked.
I did notice this morning I wasn't coughing like I was before. I did wake up at 3 am and went back to bed, where normally I would have gotten up and had a smoke. I did use my rescue inhaler this morning I seemed tight in the chest and it helped. I just realized I didn't spend an hour of my morning coughing to be able to breathe. Amazing. Though I did drop LJ off at school and I laid down on the couch and I know I slept for a little while with AJ laying on my legs. As soon as she moved I woke up and it was Charlie and Lola ( I hate that show) if I could have slept through another show that would have been it. LOL Right now AG is making secret projects in her room I know that means cutting and gluing and coloring, lol she is artsy like her oldest sister. It didn't come from my side I can't do anything. I have no imagination when it comes to stuff like that.
My side his side is a running joke around here I bet alot of people (parents) do the same thing as soon as the kids do something badish its his kid, good stuff really my kids comes from my side. LOL Random thought there wasn't it? LOL
Well I am off to a running start in this battle against nicotine. The laser treatment and my attitude towards stopping is really what is working here, the laser only mimics the effects of the nicotine for the 3 days once it is out of your system its gone. It (laser) helps with not over eating and stuff like that. Though the rest is up to me. Since I have free choice of what I do and what I don't do, I would say the laser only has about 20% effect on me the rest is my battle. I've won it before I can win it again. This time I am going for a life time of no more smoking. I can't let it kill me. The whole problem for me is I don't even like it. Never did. I never liked the taste (I know many that do) the smell (even more that do). I just never liked it. Yet I allowed it to control my life for over 27yrs. I wonder how long it's going to take for my sense of smell to return, it seems if I remember it was about 1 week and I could smell better. I could smell if someone smoked or had a drink.
AND AND Ladies please tone down on the perfume Heavens, I remember that, women you don't have to bathe in it to get the point across. I can only wear it on my back because of my asthma so you only smell me as I leave. LOL AND I DON'T BATHE IN IT!!! One little spritz is all that is needed it shouldn't be battle of the perfumes. Either he's into you for your personality or your looks I doubt your smell (UNLESS it's from not bathing) has a damn thing to do with it.
Most bars are non smoking here in US. You can smoke outside though not in. I am not sure if it's a US thing across the states or just a few here and there. I can only say my state is non smoking.
Men please your worse then the Ladies. Heavens are you trying to kill people? A light whiff of cologne is much better then drowning yourself in it. I would much rather wonder where that nice smell came from then have a stinky man next to me. I am grateful Dearest doesn't wear it but on special occasions and after many talks from me he knows how much to wear.
Well in less then 10 minutes it is going to be 24 hours since I have had a smoke. I feel pretty good. No major ticks going on not biting my nails or ripping my hair out or anyone elses either. hehehehe (evil laugh) No thoughts of going out an buying a pack......... nothing. If I can keep this up I can win and at least this is one I know I have won before and can win again. Just another mountain.
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Posted by jadeann on 2009-10-02 12:47:16 | Rating: | Views: 12
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