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My head is in such a muddle right now. Especially about Ben. We've agreed to "mutually" split up before I leave for uni in september, which is in a month now ohmygod. His reason is coz he knows he doesn't want to be with me in the future, and also coz we're both going different ways in life. It really hurts to read that over coz I mean, he says he loves me so much but if he truly did then why is he so adamant to end our relationshipl without even trying to see if the distance will work??
I don't even know why I bothered getting back with him!!! I promised myself that I wouldn't get hurt again by this guy, and honestly I've tried to keep emotionally distant but it's so hard when we spend so much time together. I think I'm gonna start trying to wean myself off him. So by the time we come to break up, it won't bother me as much. It's gonna be so hard coz he is so gorgeous, both inside and out, and he's my first love to who I lost my virginity to and it's gonna be so effin hard to just be friends with him. Arghh.
Whatever. I'll get through this.... Just like I did the first time we broke up.
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Posted by izzam on 2008-08-01 20:10:06 | Rating: | Views: 48
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Let the turkey go. If he loves you he would not say hurtful things to you. There is someone out there just for you and soon you will forget this dude. I am sure you are young do not spend your emotions on him. Do not be so available to him. Go have fun and time will be gone in having fun quickly. Change your looks and feel better.
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Posted by shinenow
on 2008-08-01 20:25:52
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Just let the guy go and do something good for you only.
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Posted by shinenow
on 2008-08-01 20:27:32
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if hes not willing to try and make it work then he doesnt love you even though he says it. i think its probably best to move on to someone who thinks youre worth it. you deserve better..good luck=)
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Posted by Juniorrr
on 2008-08-02 00:42:06
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move on babes, cuz it sounds like he knows u'd dop anythin for fim.. when people thinkt hat they take advantage. I
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Posted by xxxx
on 2008-08-06 11:09:38
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aw wow i wasn't expecting these many comments!
thank you so much everyone for your kind and encouraging words. i think you're all right... i should just let him go, but right now i can't bring myself to... i'm resisting to do it because i know i still want to be with him, even if every organ inside of me screams that it's the wrong thing to do. buut what can i do... i'm so weak right now ha
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Posted by izzam
on 2008-08-09 19:38:49
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