I met this American guy the other night in a bar. He was introduced by a friend of ours and was running into the bar very late. We had great time by dancing and then the next day, I invited him and again, he came with his friends after almost 2 hours I texted him. Anyways, we still had a good time & promised to meet again sometime soon.

The friend who introduced we to meet have problem on VISA now & I found it is a very sad thing to know coz this friend is so pissed off & I could tell it very well. It's just I am sure that he doesn't want to talk to a girl about how he feels so I just texted him to wish him everything will be alright. I feel sad coz he doesn't act normal and I am afraid that he will really leave this country and then I have no friend again. However, surely this friend cannot be the person who comfort me at all. Thus, I tried American guy I know from the bar. I texted & he texted back...and then he calls.

We talked about an hour & he understands everything I said & I was shocked how come he could know how I feel so much. He reminds me about my ex and the strange thing is that how come he even talks like him. The time I talked to him, I cannot recall that American's face but only my ex's face. I felt like I was talking to my ex and I thought I was! I totally lose that American guy's face!! I hate it...I hate that feeling come back & I hate that he seems to know everything about me again, even I know very well that he is NOT my ex.

I am freaking out!!