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totally sucks when people read your blog but have no input on it. :(
people like input.
anywaaaaaaaaaaaaay its been.. an alright week i guess. i think ive come to graps that this feeling of routine and repetition isnt gonna go away because.. lets face it.. i work everyday and my weekend are my only time off. that isnt going change for the time that i want money. so.. fighting the "routine" feeling is a worthless cause..and i should put my energy into something more productive and something i can atleast change.
ive been feeling a little more in control lately..
im hoping thats a step in the right direction.
i dont know, life is complicated.
i wish i lived in a movie. preferably just like a scene in the movie. maybe a good sex scene.
like a femme fatale. i have a weird.. obsession with that. i have a thing with being "needed".
although my b/f clearly shows he needs me... u ever feel like u need to hear it or see it from someone else?
i have that complex. i dont really like it. i feel.. its a flaw.
but arent all complex's a flaw?
who the hell knows.
i want inner peace more then anything. hence.. my "ineed_peace" sn. and corresponding photo.
but it seems my mind is in a constant state of flutter. moving from one train of thought to the other and it never stops. my brain never stops thinking.. infact my boyfriend looks at me all the time and says "you think too much" cuz ill be seated staring into space with a blank expression..with usually means. IM THINKING. so he sees the face alot.
sometimes i think my thinking is what causes me such mood swings or.. inner turmoil. i refuse to let my thoughts go, i just put them away and pick them up again whenever it is something triggers it. and they just bounce around for the time being till.. i put them away again some how. only to see them again later.
its easter this weekend, and it feels like any other. i miss being a kid. they used to hide 20 (was it a 20? or was it more? i dont rememeber) well it was in a special egg and it was hidden really hard compared to the other eggs that only had candy. i usually always found that egg.
life gets sooo crazy different.
maybe its the whiplash of the difference that has me all confused in my own mind.
maybe.
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Posted by ineed_peace on 2008-03-20 17:06:14 | Rating: | Views: 59
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Thinking a lot can cause much inner turmoil to happen. You can try deal with it by keeping yourself busy on the outside. For me, I tend to socialize a lot at certain times.
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Posted by SubTomato
on 2008-03-20 17:51:25
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If we didn't think tomuch we wouldn't have anything to write!!! thats my input for you, I hope you like it :)
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Posted by yadokta
on 2008-03-20 18:33:32
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