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my confidence!!!!!!
I think I finally got my confidence back.. My confidence to fight my confidence to take charge of my life..... I can't blame anyone or anything for my life ,my life is my own and I made it the way it is.now i need to Clean up this mess I have created. I want to have a better life......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-03 12:21:50 | Rating:

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SHARING MY EMOTIONS
Well I never thought sharing so much with all of you would have been such an emotional ride. I knew it would pull out more of my emotions but never did I think it would be like this. I don't regret opening myself up to all of you,I think it has been good for me,and will continue to be......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-01 13:18:49 | Rating:

| Views: 59 | Comments: 18 | Tags: my life

BAD MOM :(
so here I sit,and let me tell you,I know my life is reflecting on my kids.I know it is my fault for letting things be this way.I know me staying is messing up my kids emotionally. But let me also tell you that when it comes to my children I am like a mamma bear. I will go to great lengths......Read More

Posted on: 2009-07-31 16:22:52 | Rating:

| Views: 97 | Comments: 21 | Tags: my life

I feel lost....
I feel lost at this point,my husband can be nice one minute and then mean the next. It leaves me feeling confussed and lost. How can I walk away when I know sometimes he can be nice. I feel like a fool for thinking I should leave,and yet a fool for staying because I know those loving......Read More

Posted on: 2009-07-31 10:28:08 | Rating:

| Views: 91 | Comments: 23 | Tags: my life

my life/to good to be true!!!! Explicit Content
I knew it was all to good to be true..the yelling and treating me like a child like I HAVE NO INTELLIGENCE LIKE HE IS SO FRICKEN BETTER THAN ME.... ...Read More

Posted on: 2009-07-30 15:39:52 | Rating:

| Views: 45 | Comments: 14 | Tags: my life

options/my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK so things have been going fairly well in my marriage,but I'm still looking for options,incase things start to go back to the way they were,and yes I am almost certain they will,but I do have a small glimmer of hope that they won't. Any way I was offered by my friend from high school to......Read More

Posted on: 2009-07-30 10:01:21 | Rating:

| Views: 36 | Comments: 5 | Tags: my life

MY LIFE UPDATE!!!!!!!
WELL guys I am in shock right now,it has been 4 days and my husband has not yelled at me treated me badly belittled me or anything,im just shocked..it has been 4 very pleasant days. I sit here and wonder to myself could this be it? does he finally get it has he opened his eyes to see......Read More