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love hurts
2007-05-14 Last night was not the best night i have ever had. i received a call from my father who returned home from being out of town with my step-mom. she got a mothers day card from my ex from 12 years ago. this is the guy that i met off ISCA BBS and dated for awhile, the first guy i......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-27 23:26:10 | Rating:

| Views: 60 | Comments: 2 | Tags: date-rape abortion "self-punishment " punishment trust degradation step-mom fear

I Am... I can be.. I want to be
2007-05-22 I’ve been thinking about my past… maybe because I’m in the middle of a mess with yahoo because of a “guy” who used his sisters account and joined my Alt:Survivor group. A group for survivors who are also into alternative lifestyles. A safe place......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-27 22:59:38 | Rating:

| Views: 14 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Submission live love past present future Yahoo grps Survivor tired

Anger Management
2007-05-30 BEGAN: 2:10AM it has been an iteresting night to say the least. some very fine parts of it. and there are some things that i wish had never happened. but i cannot change that now. as there is no way.We found out Saturday morning that one of my husbands Aunts died that morning......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-27 22:46:35 | Rating:

| Views: 15 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Mom domestic abuse death disability ex-husband "punching-bag " self-mutilation cutting a wake funeral

A Matter of Trust
2007-06-19 I have been thinking about that word for a few days. Not only because father’s day was approaching and it had me thinking of the past. But also because I am certainly in a relationship that requires trust at all times. I am also more than a little wary of trusting other......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-26 16:42:23 | Rating:

| Views: 21 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Abuse trust submission parents adults people moving gypsy life

the christian view of spousal rape OR
MY ex-husband's VIEW of spousal rape *WARNING: May be triggering to some* 07-27-2007 Wife Rape is the term used to describe sexual acts committed without a person's consent and/or against a person's will, when the perpetrator (attacker) is the woman's......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-16 21:30:05 | Rating:

| Views: 94 | Comments: 6 | Tags: spousal rape

Top 45 Facts: Violence Against Women
07-29-2007 U.S. STATISTICS Fact #1: 17.6 % of women in the United States have survived a completed or attempted rape. Of these, 21.6% were younger than age 12 when they were first raped, and 32.4% were between the ages of 12 and 17. (Full Report of the Prevalence, Incidence, and......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-16 19:54:47 | Rating:

| Views: 73 | Comments: 1 | Tags: Statistics abuse rape domestic violence date-rape spousal-rape rape-crisis incest CONSENT statutory rape violence stranger rape same-sex rape STD HIV AIDS "ho

Come Together Explicit Content
2007-09-10 I was thinking tonight… about many things one of which was something my friend said to me. He said that he thinks that we should all stop hating so much and basic ally learn to love one another. I’m paraphrasing what he said because it’s now a little after 6:00......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-16 05:23:53 | Rating:

| Views: 20 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Forgiveness Abuse future present past live laugh love Will Joann friendship Triad Poly Family KARMA Hecate god Goddess Survived Victim Third Day Jeremy Camp Chris Rice Pagan Dr

coniderations
09-12-2007 I’ve been thinking a lot today… some things that I have noticed lately. I think the first thing that I noticed was that I’ve changed in some ways since everything started falling apart with my current relationship. It’s dawned on me that I’m not......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-16 00:17:47 | Rating:

| Views: 12 | Comments: 0 | Tags: abuse future present past human-flaw analyze father

a father's love
2007-10-11 A father’s love Should not be about how many accomplishments your children are able to present to you. Or about the ways they disappoint you either… Perhaps a father could just love their child because he is supposed to without all the extra......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-15 10:52:41 | Rating:

| Views: 42 | Comments: 3 | Tags: "abuse by Father." switches belts yelling erotica suicide by dad

my father- his actions
10-11-2007 “No matter where you go I will find you If it takes a long, long time No matter where you go I will find you If it takes a thousand years” ~Moya Brennan I don’t understand his reasoning, to yell at me. To scream at me till I am shaking......Read More