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When Tension Meant Release
It’s one o’clock in the morning. I’m exhausted. But what’s more. I’m in need. Of so many things. But first and foremost. I. Need. You. I ache. It’s been a year and still my body hums for you. A year. And still a similar voice can cause a jolt to......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-13 16:18:17 | Rating:

| Views: 19 | Comments: 2 | Tags: poetry submission Master lonliness love joy heartache LDR

what is love?
Being free even as you're being held? Knowing you can reach for the stars, and someone's there to share it with you? Or to give you a boost if you need it? Someone to laugh with, love with, cry & argue with? Someone you know will be there when you're moody, when you're......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-01 01:11:08 | Rating:

| Views: 46 | Comments: 1 | Tags: Love friendship confidant Anam Cara Dominant Master touch feelings abuse

The Grey Knight
DATE: Jun 03 2007, 6:58 am / MOOD: Full of life His words grace my screen telling me of His wants and His needs- i find myself open to Him... i want to touch His skin... Imagining that His muscles will flex under my fingers. His mind Keeps me as aroused as the thoughts......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-23 01:17:32 | Rating:

| Views: 18 | Comments: 1 | Tags: Poem Master slave collar pleasure arousal friend joy orgasms cyber online beg kneel respect trust

Who Am I?
2007-07-04 I thought I knew the answer to that once. I thought I broke away from what my uncle turned me into and finally after all those extreme years of therapy, I became a functioning member of society. I learned over the years that I still have issues where men are......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-22 23:14:47 | Rating:

| Views: 13 | Comments: 0 | Tags: sub slave lover friend disabled bbw cutter Survivor dreamer slave collared confused loved

I spoke with Master
***see the thing is, that for the longest time I had been dealing with all of what was my past pretty well. And then recently I’ve been doing one-on-one therapy of sorts with SilverWolf, who is the head Elder of our clan, our Shaman Clan. He had helped me, a lot in dealing with much of......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-20 13:24:46 | Rating:

| Views: 37 | Comments: 1 | Tags: Master slave collar judgments comments answers Trust Respect SSC love friendship cutting denial

im scared of what's to come
8/18/09 Whats the use in gaining permission to orgasm anymore? I hate it… it’s not who I am, anymore. All those years spent married and scared of everything and now for what… The self pleasure my only way out… and now it means what? Asking......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-18 23:11:37 | Rating:

| Views: 34 | Comments: 5 | Tags: scared lover masks tears "heavy heart " submssion

NYC FETISH STORE 1/3/08
The Night i was first Collared 01-04-2008 Last night as we were walking around Greenwich Village..... we walked into this store, called NY Fetish. It was such an awesome shop. An this very nice lady helped U/us. He bought these nipple clamps that I......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-15 04:09:40 | Rating:

| Views: 69 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Master slave Poly submit Truth Respect Communication SSC nyc fetish Poly Monogamous FWB Relationship teacher lover friend

Masochist versus Cutting
*This may be triggering to other Survivors, so I want to warn All Other Survivors for this Reason before they read this blog. * What is the difference between the two? Do the lines become blurred especially when you are like me and have submissive tendencies? Another sub from......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-08 18:53:08 | Rating:

| Views: 58 | Comments: 2 | Tags: Masochist Master slave cutting punishment "clean slate " love Collared

Do you Judge People on Face Value?
Do not Judge us, Please. 08-16-2008 This morning after waking up screaming... another nightmare, or vision of what could come. Took Deidre out, as she doesn't want to leave my side. But I wasn't feeling the best even though I one of the better knights of my life, while I was......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-06 23:30:24 | Rating:

| Views: 83 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Master slave judging submit Truth Respect Communication SSC Munch Poly Monogamous FWB Relationship teacher lover friend

My Master is Very Special
I found out that just because I’m not like other slaves, because of my disability and my past, Master is special and takes special care with me. I never thought I would find someone willing to work with me. Always afraid I was that I would be a submissive without a Dominant because of all......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-06 15:49:28 | Rating:

| Views: 37 | Comments: 0 | Tags: past future present abuse love Master slave BDSM zafu kneeling respect TRUST Triad Poly Plus size disability

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