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You got to love Meds.
I have been on Prozac for about a month now. they do take the edge off. I feel better, but I still hate the idea that I have to be on meds. At least Prozac is not habit forming. haven't seen my had Dr. in 3 a month. been too busy.Went out of town for a week, and since I have been......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-01 14:23:26 | Rating:

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update
Hubby and I are getting alone a little better now. I am finally on meds. and I am seeing a Therapist, That is helping some also. It took me hitting rock bottom to see I was not happy. I got me a new wedding ring. I love it. I wear even when I don't have to.. (when I am cleaning the......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-03 10:52:18 | Rating:

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Is it over?
Hubby and I talked some last night. Don't remember now what all was said. But I remember thinking that I don't love him any more. I used to think I did. Not sure when I stop. I don't look forward to him coming home everyday after work. I don't like talking to him on the......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-09 15:58:51 | Rating:

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Mad at hubby,, Gee what else is new!
Yesterday was a pretty good day for me. I try to do stuff everyday that make me happy, Little stuff mostly. Some time it's just a few min to myself. I make pottery. So I spent most of the day out in my studio. I didn't have supper ready,, I didn't know what I was going to have for......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-06 14:54:47 | Rating:

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update
It seem I have gotten busy. I have seen my new counselor 3 times now. I like her a lot. I hope we can help me sort out my head. On the 17th, I go see a Dr, Who will runs some test to see what kind of depressing I have and then figure out what kind of Meds I need to be on.......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-05 12:57:35 | Rating:

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My husband story
The other day I wrote about how he WAS going to fix me some tea,, and how we were planing on having sex that night.. But I got mad at him... etc..... Well he came home from work yesterday and wanted a kiss from me. I just turned my head the other way. He ask if I was still mad.. It was......Read More

Posted on: 2009-07-14 17:22:30 | Rating:

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husband part 2
I really think to much. But since I can't find a counselor this is the next best thing I have right now. Watching TV last night.. It hits me. We were watch a show where this guy asked the girls to married him. It was real sweet and a surprise to her. Why is it always a surprise to the......Read More

Posted on: 2009-07-14 13:25:46 | Rating:

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Husband
I realize two things or three. One: I don't LIKE my husband but I do love him, or at least care about him. Last night or yesterday.. I had been working or playing with my clay all day. so the outdoor kitchen/studio that I do all my work in was a mess. I wanted to it all cleaned up......Read More

Posted on: 2009-07-13 14:15:26 | Rating:

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More stuff in my head
I try again to call the Counselor office, but still no answer. They said they would be open today but I got the same message over the phone. I guess I will try again tomorrow. And I am still waiting on the e-mail for a list of DR. that are going to run some test on me. So here I set,, waiting for......Read More

Posted on: 2009-07-07 15:37:00 | Rating:

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More about ME
I made my first phone call today. The company my husband works for,, has this "thing" where if you are not happy at home,, then you are not going to be happy at work" So they have set up this 1-800 number where you can call to get help. They will then find you the DR or......Read More