Okay, I’ll let you meet Haakon. Haakon is a very nice guy. He does skateboarding, he has a nice family, and he doesn’t steal, doesn’t do drugs, no gang fighting or anything like that. He seems perfect to me, after being with a guy like Kyle.

Well, here you go. I figured “why not use Haakon to get over Kyle? Perfect plan! To fall in love with him, so that it gets really easy to break up with Kyle.” But oooh no.

One of my best friends is called Kaja, and she started liking Haakon at the same time as me. We both told each other, and together we went and told him to make a decision. Who would you want of us? Suddenly he came over to me and told me I was the one he wanted. Kaja was heartbroken, but she accepted his decision, and we’re still best friends.

Today I came with Haakon to his place (after lying to Kyle about me wanting to “rest”). It was nice and fun and cozy and all… And then we started to kiss. Oh. My. Fucking. God. That was the most horrible thing I’ve ever done! It was just… disgusting. It felt like I was kissing my brother or something. Besides, he sucked at kissing. He became all passionate and started to squeeze me and press my face into his; I actually think he broke my nose. He bit me in my lip, his teeth crashed into mine… Yeah, it was pretty much the worst kissing I’ve ever experienced. After that, it feels like I’ve lost all of my feelings for him. He’s a nice person and all… But there’s nothing romantic anymore. How the fuck is that possible?! I had such a perfect idea!! My parents liked him and all. Fuck.

So, in addition to me ruining between him and Kaja, I don’t even want to go out with him anymore. I’ve been going behind Kyle’s back (now I CERTAINLY doubt I want to break up, he’s stunningly wonderful to be with compared to Haakon), by telling Haakon I want to go out with him, while I’m still doing Kyle. And Kyle’s the one I’m in love with, really.

But I really can’t stay with Kyle. I just can’t make myself break up with such a wonderful guy.
Well, considering Haakon, I think I should just tell him the truth. Something like “hey. Today was really nice, I really enjoyed myself. I’ve got feelings for you too. The thing is, it sort of felt wrong… I don’t think I’m ready to move on after Kyle yet. I’m really sorry. I just didn’t know until after being with you today. You’re really nice though, and I wish it could be different.” Does that sound okay?

I’ll do it right now. I better not push it before me.
Tuva, tell the truth. He deserves it.