OK, so I made a list of things I’ll have to do to make everyday much better:
1. Do the pregnancy test
2. Come to some kind of solution with my dad
3. Maintain the relationship with my sister
4. Get through the party on the 1st of May with Kyle
5. Get through the party on Saturday with Kyle
6. Break up with Kyle for good

So, I did the pregnancy test, and it turned out I wasn’t pregnant, even after at least ten times of unsafe sex! Is that luck or what! And I’m relieved; everything seems so much easier now that I don’t have to worry about a baby as well.

Then I talked to my dad, but he keeps being an asshole, refusing to see me. So I’ve decided to not give a fuck. Who would want a dad like that anyway? He only gives me trouble. Most people do just fine with only one family, so I’ll get by with my mum and step dad only, right? I even suggested going to this conflict court! Then we’d have an objective part who is professional at such conflict solutions, but oh no, he’s too much of a coward to turn up. Whatever, then.

I feel really bad because of my sister though. I forgot about the party on Wednesday, so I planned to go to the cinemas with her, but I had to cancel it. I should really get together with her. Even though my dad and I have lost our relationship, I should keep my sister close.

THE PARTY on Wednesday night was a mess, seriously. I decided I would survive this weekend of parties being with Kyle before I break up with him, but I started making out with this other guy (who I think I might start to like a bit). Plus several girls. I swear, if Kyle finds out I made out with that other boy, he’ll put him in hospital, no kidding. Kyle was like stalking me, and pushing everyone trying to touch me. God, I hated it. Though I love him. And I hate myself for loving him.

What do you do when you love someone who puts you down?
What do you do when you love someone your parents hate, so you’ll have to hide the relationship and frequently lie to the most supportive people you know?
What do you do when you love a person who cheats, lies and steals?

Point no. 6 is to finally break up with him, he does me no good.
I doubt it, actually. I love him too much.