Remember I said I was still sleeping with my ex boyfriend? Well, it has always been unprotected (happened five times now)… And now I’m really starting to worry about me being pregnant. My period was supposed to come three days ago, and my stomach is constantly hurting and I’ve felt really sleepy lately. Maybe it’s just my imagination, I don’t know. But the thing is, I can’t take a pregnancy test as long as I’m still having unprotected sex with him, so it seriously needs to stop now. I should find out soon. I’m just so weak when I get horny, I can’t stop it. He seems supportive though, I think he’ll help me through the abortion if that’s the case. Five fucking times. I feel so stupid. So many people talking about how an abortion has given them depressions and they’re thinking of it the rest of their lives… I don’t want to turn out like that. I don’t want to lose my life.
Well, it has only been 10 days since we slept together unsafely, but the last time was today. Jesus! I’ve got to end it right away. I mean what if I take a pregnancy test now to find out if I got pregnant during one of the first times, and it turns out I didn’t, so I’m all calm because the test was negative, but then instead I got pregnant few days before and it doesn’t show on the test, and then it takes weeks before I notice and maybe it’s suddenly too late for the abortion.
I can’t have babies with a drug dealer, dope head, a pathological liar, and he’s an ADHD kid with kleptomania who likes to kill cops. Seriously, I can’t. Don’t you agree?
I’ve got to stop myself from doing this anymore.
Posted by incense on 2008-04-23 11:52:56 | Rating: n/a | Views: 72
you need to take the test rigth away just to ease your mind. If it doesn't come in another week or two take another test. Just because he's a dope head and drug dealer doesn't mean you would need to have him help you raise a child, unless your doing the drugs too, then an abortion might be the way to go.
I dont think having the baby would be an alternative to me, im only 16.. im scared to have a baby at such a young age, and with a person i dont want to spend any time with. Also, I'm dead scared of what my mother would say if I tell her I'm going to have a baby.. Isn't it better to just take the abortion, and get it out of my life? I dont have to tell anyone.
I'm hoping you get lucky and you are not pregnant. If you are going to have unprotected sex, you need to get on the pill or someother type of birth-control. Babies are a blessing, but an unplanned pregnancy may be the worst thing in your life right now. If you are scared of your mother knowing you are having sex, go to a planned parent-hood clinc. I'm sure there is one whereever your live. It's completely confidential and if you can't pay, no problem. Just look into it. You'll be better off preventing pregnancies instead of eliminating them. Best of luck.
