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What am I still doing here? on 2008-05-29 17:37:11 |
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get out then. if nothing holds you back, just do it.
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<3 on 2008-05-29 17:33:20 |
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Wow. This was really beautiful. Keep writing. Loved it.
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secrets on 2008-05-29 17:29:44 |
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Very pretty.
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Cuppa anyone........? on 2008-05-29 17:21:18 |
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That's so cute. I believe in the spontanous small things. I'd love to become even better at it, I love what you did :)
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it doesn't need to be a secret anymore... on 2008-05-29 17:08:08 |
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Congrats :D Good luck with the baby!
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come back on 2008-05-29 16:32:24 |
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Must be horrible. I believe he is still around you though, and I'm sure you'll get through it.
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This is Me, take it or leave it on 2008-05-29 16:16:06 |
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Hang in there.. You've had a tough time. With such an attitude you'll make it :)
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Am I changing? Am I different? What now? on 2008-05-29 16:02:54 |
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me too. im just not myself anymore. ive been here before, i can feel myself going back.
i even know what is causing it, but i can't pull myself together to stop it either.
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Karma on 2008-05-29 13:39:39 |
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I love your writing.
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Don't Speak on 2008-05-29 13:25:19 |
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Beautiful.
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I think on 2008-05-29 12:45:12 |
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I know the feeling. Everything just stops when I'm with him, and it's suddenly all perfect. Until I'm not with him anymore, and I'm able to see the everything from the outside. Then I realise this whole relationship is actually making me unhappy.
But still, it's way too hard to give up on something that makes you feel so good.
"How can happiness feel so wrong?
How can misery feel so sweet?"
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Concerning the last post... on 2008-05-24 19:06:01 |
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really, how come? =P
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Im tired of being FAKE!!!!!!!! on 2008-05-19 17:04:40 |
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Good luck. It'll be hard, but after a while you will feel so much better ^^ Be yourself!
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My Life is a Sick, Twisted mess on 2008-05-17 18:59:00 |
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I love the way you show that you care for him that much, by wanting him to be happy rather than just wanting him for yourself. I admire it.
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Nerd, Hippie, Antichrist. Really now on 2008-05-16 02:20:09 |
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Hahah, I wish my parents would label me like that, so that I could have something to laugh at them about ^^
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Are dogs angles? on 2008-05-14 17:57:31 |
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We just had to give away our dog.. Suddenly I got twin brothers, and they had to have so much attention. We gave her to our past neighbors who we really trust. An older couple with grown up kids, they can give her all the attention she deserves... I miss her a lot though. Pets are amazing.
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Drugs and conflicts. on 2008-05-14 17:47:37 |
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I like intuitions :]
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Other Side Of The World. on 2008-05-13 17:37:34 |
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Cutting only helps in the very moment, but it actually destroys your mechanism to protect yourself from mental break downs. So in a long term it doesn't help. I got help from a counsellor to quit, and I haven't cut myself in almost a year now.. Very proud.
Besides, I like to read. Keep posting :)
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Day 1. on 2008-05-13 17:33:34 |
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I really like this post, much of the same feelings as I have. He's really sensitive about the sex too.. What's up with that? I don't understand. Oh well. I think it's more about my age than about the amount of people I've slept with.
In darkness... When survival is assured, you have to learn to live again. Transform. Evolve. Heal.
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Keeping it all in the family.... on 2008-05-13 17:02:19 |
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I don't even know what to say. This is horrible. But yeah, it is good that you (in spite of such a childhood) have stayed onto that it's them doing something wrong, not you. Family tends to have a lot of influence, and that could be dangerous.. very dangerous to oneself.
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Girls & Problems on 2008-05-12 16:25:22 |
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I think it is possible to control your emotions to a certain level, but then again it wouldn't make it any better for yourself. It's called denial, and it will hit you back sooner or later anyways.
Good luck with this woman, I hope you will start looking at her as a wonderful element in your life, rather than a bother :)
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Hello World on 2008-05-08 14:48:56 |
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Thanks ^^
Have a nice day yourself!
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Is it too late? on 2008-05-08 14:46:20 |
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I like your attitude :)
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Dream journal---Please think what is life on 2008-05-07 16:43:58 |
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What is life. I love that question, and I come up with a different answer every time.
I don't really think there is a constant answer to it though, it's all about what you -decide- to think. Everything comes from the inside and out, not opposite.
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An Angel or A Matriarch on 2008-05-07 08:58:20 |
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What a bitch.. I'm sorry, but I was really angry when I read about how she stole your opportunity to be a kid, to play and have friends. Well, it's good there came something good out of it though.
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Textmessage from Kyle 06th of May 22:20 on 2008-05-06 17:26:05 |
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Sadly yes.. My parents have forbidden me from seeing him again, and it's really putting me down when I have to lie to them... It makes me very unhappy living a lie like that.
And he has done me wrong. He didn't mean it to be as bad as it turned out to be, but he has an illness I don't know how to handle, so for my own safety and future I can't stay with him..
It's devastating though.
He's too wonderful.
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If Only on 2008-05-06 15:16:26 |
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That's very true. I don't really have anything to add. Great post.
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Your Pride on 2008-05-05 18:13:23 |
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Great post, beautifully written. :)
Good luck.
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Walk Away. on 2008-05-05 18:05:58 |
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I agree, fuck it. It seems too hard to handle.
Well, it is said that everything that doesn't kill you just makes you stronger, and I believe it's true.
It's a valuable experience.
Although it hurts as hell.
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The RIDE on 2008-05-04 17:44:39 |
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emotional roller coaster :) pretty poem.
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Why hate? on 2008-05-04 05:49:13 |
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Agreed. It's very sad that so many conservative religious people are discriminating like that. They pretty much hate everything that's different from themselves. Not all Christians are like that, but there's still too many of them.
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Will anyone ever understand on 2008-05-02 15:23:55 |
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It must be horrible to lose your daughter. I've been considering committing suicide too, it's very tempting at times to just let go. Still I hope you'll find someone who apprieciates you and makes you look at life as it really is or should be.
Good luck and a caring hug <3
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To my favorite man, I choose you. on 2008-05-02 15:18:42 |
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Good luck, you seem like a loving person. I hope he deserves you.
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alryt!! I'm a mistress!! on 2008-05-02 15:15:55 |
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I broke up with my boyfriend a while ago, but we're still madly in love, so we continued seeing each other. And I know I can't stay with him, I just can't stay away from him either. But since we broke up, he has been making out with other girls, and it makes me damn jealous too... It's so damn hard!
And on top of it, I feel really bad because I feel that way even though I was actually the one to break up... As if I don't really have the right to feel the way I do.
I truly understand how that jealousy cuts and hurts you, I really do.
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Thoughts on 2008-05-02 14:42:04 |
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I hope you will find your answers, and that you realise that happiness is just around the corner :)
I think way too many people tie themselves to the standard life. Free yourself, get new values, start over. If you keep your surroundings, you'll also keep the alcohol, the booze, the loneliness and the unhappiness. Good luck!
Remember, do not try to chase happiness as if it was a distant substance. Let it become a part of you =)
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Blah Blah Blah boo on 2008-05-02 13:38:30 |
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I've always believed it is such a great experience to be pregnant, and I really look forward to it (when the pregnancy is wanted though). I'm really happy for you :)
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waiting... on 2008-05-02 10:08:44 |
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Beautiful poem :)
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Will on 2008-05-02 10:02:35 |
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I am happy being me.
Although I have some very difficult tasks to deal with in the very near future, and my body literally aches.
But I do remember the feeling of being happy, and I intend to keep it. Sitting in the middle of this abortion / break up / my dad's mental abuses, I still manage to pick those happy moments, and to think about what life actually is giving me, all the experiences and the strength.
Great post.
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i hate everything on 2008-05-02 09:50:57 |
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Everything seems shitty to me too sometimes. Or most times.
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Fuck Off Would You. on 2008-05-02 09:44:51 |
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Me too, really. Very well written.
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My mother.... on 2008-05-02 08:49:13 |
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I've been reading all of your posts now, your childhood must have been horrible. I think it's good for you to write about it, but also I think you should consider seeing a therapist. This is really bad, and you really NEED to talk to someone about it. Just writing will help, but I reckon you should hear a constructive respons from someone professional as well.
I'd love to read more about it, so I'm going to continue reading your posts. Anyways, good luck with everything.
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