My friends keep asking me if I’m missing him enough to be the reason why I seem so lifeless these days. Well I can’t pretend that I’m not missing and thinking of him, I even caught myself starring at his pictures and listening to the music he always plays and suddenly begin to cry, even if I tried to stop the tears from falling I can’t and it just wouldn’t stop. I want to see him again; I want to be with him so bad I’m willing to give up everything just to be close to him. I can’t forget his eyes, his smile and how just holding his hands seems a little bit closer to heaven.

       I missed how we argue to each other, even to the silliest things, I even miss his mood swings the thing I loved the most. Is it wrong to ask and to pray for Him to give the one I love to me again? We seem so right for each other yet I guess life gives funny twist in life. He always told me that everything has reasons but I can’t find a reason to be away from him, why we have to go through what we are going through right now. I wish I had the chance to tell him how perfect he is in my eyes and that no one can ever fill in his place here in my heart. If only I could be with him for the last time, I would correct all the mistakes we had in the past.

       I’m hurt, broken in pieces even, but I know someday I will be fine, I might never find someone like him to love again but I hope that when the right time comes I may be able to open my heart and live again. Maybe the people around me are right that its time to let go of the past and accept that being away from each other is what is really meant for us. Who am I to question Gods decision or his choice? If this is what should be done I would let go of the past but never forget it, he will always be here in my heart. In silence I will still love him and in silence he will still be mine forever. Even we may never cross paths again I know in heaven our hearts will always be together. He is a part of me the part that may be lost forever, a part of me that I can never forget. I won’t ever forget how he made me feel a little closer to heaven. So this might be my goodbye to my fallen angel, if ever we never meet again you will always be a part of what I call heaven.