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My answer at this point is yes. There's this band, my absolute favorite band: Blue October. Their name came from when the lead Justin Furstenfeld was in a psych ward during the month of october.
My point.
October, something changed completely in me. I couldn't describe it, and i can't tell you for certain if it was sudden or it is then it chose to rear its ugly head. I was driving home from work, and found myself halfway to the next major city which is about 2 hours away. The weird thing is, i don't remember how I got there and how I drove there. I'm sure I wasn't some type of lunatic on the road. And more and more i'm becoming anxious. I jump at any sound, and anyone touching me (tapping on the shoulder, you know, appropriate things of that nature) without knowing. I now sleep early because i'm not sure what the darkness is hiding. What's worse, i'm insomniac so I take sleeping pills to help me sleep and escape my fearful reality.
What does it mean to be happy? Even as a child, i can't remember being "happy" i was easy to satisfy then. But never happy. I don't know where i'm going with this.......
Just venting, i suppose.
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Posted by idowhatiwant on 2008-02-10 00:09:35 | Rating: | Views: 185
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