They say there's no life after death but with me, there's been no life after birth and all i wait for is these lungs to refuse breathe, this mind, for once, to finally be at ease, and this... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-07 01:39:20
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My mind has forgotten how to sleep, or is simply sparing me from it. How else would I have found this peace that only dwells in late darkness? Or the sobriety and clarity of thought that... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-07 01:46:14
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Today I met a new friend. Loneliness. I've been running away from him not realizing that the harder i try to shake him off, the stronger his grip; the faster i try to run, he's always... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-07 01:47:06
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What day is it? When they all seem to run into each other. Sleep, what used to be my only ali, has escaped me left me to the demons that awake when the world sleeps. When... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-07 02:02:30
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I'm tired of being second, if i'm that lucky. I'm tired of being so easy to replace. I miss you, but you don't care. You didn't even bother saying goodbye. I didn't even get to see your... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-07 02:43:39
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You left me emptier than you found me and judged me for how I tried fixing what you broke. You left so sudden that I had no time to prepare my heart. That's why, up to... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-08 23:50:52
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My answer at this point is yes. There's this band, my absolute favorite band: Blue October. Their name came from when the lead Justin Furstenfeld was in a psych ward during the month of... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-10 00:09:35
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Chapter 1           I turn towards the clock. Its black characters blink 8:30am against its neon green background. Without looking, I reach... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-14 00:05:34
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          The phone rings. Intuitively, i know it's him. I don't have to check. I wonder if i should answer it or ignore him for once, But as weak as I... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-17 02:08:10
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When i'm driving in my car, and a man comes on to say how this world has lost its sway and this curse will always be with me as it has so far. Oh, how easy it would be to end this.... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-18 01:04:26
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      Tonight, i put on my best dress. This is a special night; for me atleast. The host was kind enough to sit me, but it's been almost an hour, and now he keeps offering... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-18 23:27:06
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I'm sinking. I can feel it. Like being in an elevator when it goes down a little bit faster. I can feel myself leap just a bit, even though my feet are still on the ground. That has... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-19 00:38:44
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Everyone has gone through the downs where the road seemed to end. What is behind is chasing after you. You don't know what it is but what's certain is: it's bad. and It's coming to... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-21 23:19:39
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This feeling chases away my fears and i"m bold again where my fears are secondary and I can laugh endlessly at nothing. I've found a new addiction that makes me feel safe... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-25 00:48:09
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I smile with a broken face, lifeless. I've allowed others to chip and mold me like a statue. How can I make you see there's a soul inside? I yearn and reach out, scream and cry... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-25 04:26:39
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Cushion my bed for a sleep I have come close to achieving. Lower me down, enabling me to touch the sky. Lay this dust let it encircle me. This treacherous journey has brought me almost... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-26 01:44:42
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I came to face my fears. Only to realize that my fears are an ocean. Suddenly, the rain of what I feel is falling tossing me from side to side on what i thought was my... Read More
Posted by: idowhatiwant on 2008-02-27 23:45:35
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