Maybe I need to do some soul searching or something I don't know. I know it's really my problem. I'm a recovering approval addict.  I think Joyce Meyer may have coined that term, "approval addict".  Recently I found a really good article on line written by John Ortberg. That article was so helpful, here's a partial quote from that article that really applies right now, "...no ones disapproval can emotionally affect me without my authorization." and it says, "it is irrational and destructive to let someones disapproval affect me." It's a really good article, I googled approval addict and found it. egr stands for extra grace required.

Yeah, so it was a struggle when I came home from chuch today. But I know God is still on his throne, he is still in charge and those who trust in the Lord will be kept safe.

Let me be captured by the grace of God.

If you oh Lord kept of a record of sin who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness therefore you are feared.
My soul waits for the Lord, my soul waits and in His word I put my hope.
My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning.
Put your hope in the Lord for with the Lord is unfailing love and with him is full redemption.
~Psalm 130