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02|10|08
So, i dont really know what to put in here, but i think i have covered the basics in the "about me" section. so now i will tell you how i got to where i am.
So, I moved away from my favourite place in the world [Niagara Falls Ont.] when i was in the second grade. And i moved to Bracebridge. I hated it, i didnt have anyone. My family had betrayed me by making me move away from my friends and my home. And being a new kid, i obviously had no friends, except my cousin, Chelsea, who was also in the second grade.
So, i started hanging out with Chelsea and her friend Jessie, but then when i thought things were just, as bad as they could get... I found out that Jessie hated me...
This just made me a really depressed child. becuase i had no friends in the town that i lived in, other than my cousin. but i didnt care, i would do anything to make jessie like me just so i wouldnt been known as "that kid who hung out with her cousin untill she died" so i did anything jessie wanted me to do for her.. and i was a total rug.
So, there i was... being pushed over by Jessie and Chelsea just because i wanted a friend.
Then, grade 3 started, and i met a few more people, i met Dillon, and Adam, and that was a start.
Me and Dillon became more and more close over the years, but im not there yet. and Me and Adam, well i use to be in love with him for simple words. This was also kinda cool becuase i started to hang out with them more, which made me not as much as a rug for Jessie.
Grade 4 i was in a split class [4, 5, 6] and things kinda got better, i was in a class with my sister because she was in Grade 6, and i hung out with her and her friends alot, and i still talk to a few of them.
Grade 5 had its ups and downs, one down was that the Alternative school year [which started in August, and had more weeks off in October, January and March] was cancelled, which meant there were no more 3 grade split classes. But the up was that there were only 4 fifth graders, and since we were so little my teacher use to send us to the room beside our class to do math, and since i was the best in math out of the four of us, I taught Dillon, Tamiko and Adam.
Grade 6 was probably my favourite year in public school. i stopped hanging out with Jessie becuase she was now in 7th grade and had her own friends, and Chelsea was in a different class, so i didnt hang out with her alot either. i started hanging out with Collette, Sam, Kristie, Christine, Dillon [more so], Tamike [more so] and alot of different people, this was the year that i feel emotionally i grew stronger.
Grade 7 was sick, i was now the oldest Poland in the school and i was excited about that becuase that meant that no one was there to stand up for me in my family, it was my time to become more independent. and i did. i made alot of great friends, and some friendships grew stronger.
Grade 8 finally, we were at the top of the school and there was no one to look their noses down at us. i loved it, and i started my life over pretty much, i'm still really close with alot of people in niagara falls, seeing as half the people there i consider my best friend. this year, i also had started dance class, and was really enjoying it.
But, this is when people starting changing, people started drinking. Now, in my family, we didnt really care about underage drinking, so we did. but this was different, people were drinking to get drunk, not just drinking to have fun, but me, being stupid as i am. joined in.
Grade 9 was... well.. grade 9, people change and you meet new people. my best friend [Leanne Yagi] came up for a week and we talked every second, this was when i promised her that i would never do illegal drugs. and i havent, nothing is worth breaking that promise. this year, i met one of my best friends, Samantha MacPhail, and this year was full with laughter, anger, partying and most of all friends.
although, i got into a major fight with two friends, both of which i now consider really good friends. this fight lasted for 4 months until Sam M forced us to hang out and work everything out, and for that i owe sam alot.
The Now so this year, since i started grade 10, my father has fallen in love with nancy, my sister and i have become more then sisters and i have been pursuing my life with my travels, and in 2007 i went on 2 1/2 cruises and 1/2 in 2008 [it was over new years] Grde 10 has been alot more, simple than grade 9, i know more people, so i dont have classes alone. i would know the school, but it changed, but now i know where everything is. i have alot of people i trust and im learning more about the people i know, to see who i can trust and who i cant. and i think im doing pretty good. i have met a few new people and have befriended people i have known for a while. i have been more up there with my clothing style, but looks are still my least priority. i do straighten my hair sometimes, but i dont care when its not...
i feel like my dad and i have been more... understanding with eachother which is cool becuase i can go to him for things that most teenage girls dont go to their dads about [for example, period problems, boy problems, school problem etc]
i have learned alot about myself over the years. but the main this is...
im complex.
so if you dont get me, thats cool. i dont get myself...
but dont judge me, or leave comments like "wow your such a fag" or "omg your so retarded" because honestly. i couldn't give a fuck what you think.
so if you dont like me, stop reading my blogs, and if you have a problem with me, or any of my friends...
deal with it.
and if you dont, dont think that we are going to worry about it. |
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