Alright. This is my first entry on Thoughts.com

Recently, i've been talking to this guy, who is sweet as all can be. And, eventually, he's going to see me naked. I don't like this idea. I am very self conscious about my body, always have felt overweight, and now, I'm even more so since my breakup with my ex of two years. Over the span of our relationship, I gained about 20 more lbs. And I'm finally seeing it. In my arms, they're fatter, I'm getting that fat bulge above my elbows, my stomach, I'm definately getting a belly, and my thighs are even more thunderous than before.

I don't want him, who goes to the gym and is very health conscious to be dating a lardass. So, I'm going to finally fix myself, not only for myself, but for him, and for my family. My goal weight loss is 30lbs. I started talking to my friends, one of which went from being 260lbs to being 170lbs. He told me, he started off with the McDougall diet. It's basically a strict vegan diet, that is supposedly going to make me lose 20lbs in 12 days. I'm really hoping for that kind of weight loss, rapid. It would be nice, but I can't eat any white bread, or pasta, or anything like that. Nor can I eat meat, or poultry, any eggs, or dairy products. However, they say I can eat cereal, so I'm going to use skim milk, which I detest.

Also, in addition to all this, I am starting a regular work out regimen. I'm going to be going three times a week, on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. No matter what. I'll do cardio for a half hour, a few of the machines, and then some more cardio for about another 15 minutes. I need to keep my metabolism up, so I may even start using some green tea.

I'm really, really excited about losing this weight, and being thin again. I want to be 125 lbs, something I havent been or ever remember being. I weight around 156 right now. I'm seriously hoping that I can shed some of this fat before the boy moves. He moves the 17 of November, so I have to be really serious about this. So, if anyone would like to encourage me, I'll more than welcome it. In fact, I could probably use it.

Thanks. 

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