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Ok here's the deal. Up until the end of highschool (3 years ago) i loved my body and didn't have any problems with it. Now I've put on about 20 lbs since the end of first year uni (2 years ago) and I feel like a complete blimp. I really notice it in my stomach. I used to be able to flex and have some sort of six pack or definition and now I got the aweful "muffin top" going over my jeans. I REALLY want to get down to 135 lbs again and feel confident.
I think the weight gain is affecting EVERYTHING. All I think about is how much I weigh and how I shouldn't be snacking but it seems that I have no will power. Especially around my bf. He's aways eating unhealthy things (like at home he doesn't ever eat vegetables) and my family is all over weight and gorging on unhealthy foods. I deff. have a lot of anxiety as a result. I'm constantly comparing myself to other people in the room or thinking about how big I got and even with my bf I feel like I'm not the girl he first started dating and that I'm too fat to do sexy things around him. I desperately want to move out of my parents house so that I don't have to be around bad food or even have food around that I can eat. But of course I still have to pay for university. I am way too logical to throw up the food but yet I am not logical enough to portion and waht not.
GAHHHHH I am so annoyed! maybe If you know some things it might put this into perspective:
height: 5'7
weight (to date): 156.5 lbs
Pants size: 27 or 5/6
shirt sizE: medium
bra: 34C
so yeah I gota get on this
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Posted by hunnybunny29 on 2008-06-20 17:08:29 | Rating: | Views: 46
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Heh.
So.
Why are we listing out bra size again?
If you want to paint a great image of yourself, then just do it- no excuses attached.
Telling us you are 5'7 add's height, there in turn is an effort to negate any ill-feelings towards a weight of 156.5 lbs. Telling us your shirt size is medium and that you wear a size 5 . . . is just another distraction of your weight, 156.5.
You obviously want someone to be convinced you are not fat.
You obviously want someone to tell you that you do not sound fat.
Let me just take a wild guess.
You tell a story of being fat.
But 'fat' is not something people want to imagine, or have, or see, or feel.
In this unknown world of basing size and looks and features on a simple imagination, you have just defeated your 'image' by this fat blog.
And in an attempt to save your invisible reputation, you MUST add the bra size. And the medium sized shirt. And a size 5.
Women would love to be a size 5, and we all fuckin' know it.
So don't act like you don't either.
I don't understand the mind sometimes. .
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Posted by StayingAlive
on 2008-06-20 17:22:03
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Shortly after meeting my wife, my back began to sprout hair. Now,after twelve years, I now can walk backwards or forwards in a swim suit and nobody knows whether I'm coming or going! It bothered me at first but now I don't care. I have waxed and shaved for vanity but the reality is this-this is how I was made.
If you want to lose weight then lose it, if you dont, then be happy with what you have. Trust me, I have seen some absolutley beautiful women's bodies who had crooked teeth or nasty feet so stop beating yourself up-everybody is messed-up in one way or another!
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Posted by Lastlighthouse
on 2008-06-20 17:47:35
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