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| how to be happy. chapter 2.
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Today I played ball with my boyfriend and my friend. It was probably the first time I actually played happily, for a long time. Ever since my brother left I hated playing sports so much...I felt as though I couldn't play any sport well. I missed those times with my brother, when we played soccer in our favorite park together...I was happy. So I stayed away from sports for a long time once he left...but now I don't think I mind it.
Today was fun!
Moral of the story.
If something from the past that you had no control over ever keeps you from doing something you like to do, then you're being weak. It'll only make you unhappy. We should all just let go of those thoughts and do what we enjoy doing. Just give it a try, if you're with people who love you...it'll make you happy.
---------------------------------------------Jealousy------- -----------------------------------------
I don't like that my cousin gets drunk with my boyfriend. They're neighbors and all, but...why? Why do they do that...why does my boyfriend continue to do that when he knows it upsets me. My cousin gets all "flirtacious" when she's drunk. And I don't like her speaking to him in that instance...it just makes me sad.
I could deal with that easily...if he didn't come home to call me until like...1:00 in the morning. I'm generally a nightowl, so this usually isn't a problem but it's worse to wait in bed for a phone call, then to do something and not see the time. I would sleep and put it the phone on ringer instead of vibrate, but...my parents dont want me on the phone so late.
Even this I could have handled...however...after about twenty minutes (relatively short for our usual phone calls) into the call...he is too tired, and wishes to sleep.
-sigh-
I stayed up for a short phonecall because he was getting drunk with his friends.
-sadness-
how i could have reacted to this- accept it. my boyfriend has friends. just because my cousin is one of them, doesn't mean a thing. he shouldn't have his happiness taken from him just so my jealousy would go away.
Sometimes, compromise is the best thing. He's a sweet guy and does a lot of things for me, I rather him not be chained down like me. |
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Posted by howtobehappy on 2008-07-12 23:32:41 | Rating: | Views: 27
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