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Well. Ever take a break for so long from something that you feel like you may be no good at it anymore? Yea, that's me and writing. But I'm awake for a minute and figured I may as well take a shot in the dark at explaining my lackluster performance in blogging as of late.
Before I started writing on this site some months ago, I spoke about my feelings literally never. Could be for a variety of reasons I suppose. Ive always been somewhat overly aware of my surroundings. I hate to stick out, be noticed, etc., and so forth, and for that reason I learned to keep most of my thoughts to myself at a relatively young age. I've always been shy, quiet, not very out going. It has its benefits and pitfalls I suppose... Point is, for someone such as myself, having this blog thing to speak my mind on is still somewhat of an adjustment. In person it's extremely difficult to get me talking (just ask Steph ;) so I'm not the best at trying to put out logical, well structured depictions about what goes through my head. I've always fancied myself more of a people watcher by nature anyway. I'm much more inclined to sit back and watch everyone else have at it, and keep to myself, blend in.. anyone still wondering why I chose an invisible entity as my username?
Now factor in that I've had to become nocturnal for the last month or so as I'm working night shift. The times my mind is alert and working in such a way that is conducive to writing coherent thoughts is during the wee hours of the night when everyone else is asleep and I have zero access to a computer. Alas, by the time I'm home, any profound (yea right) ideas i may have had, have long escaped my clutches. It's frustrating really. I'd love to write something and feel like it's intriguing and fancy and all sorts of other words. But hell, even right now, Ive just gotten home after 9 hours all night, to sleep for MAYBE 8, and be back shortly thereafter for another 12. Sounds lovely don't it? So hey, this is all my way excusing myself from any consistent blogging responsibility. Maybe when my brain is more acclimated to its sleep depravity I'll contribute more. Or something.
That, and I've always felt like i had a bit of an inconvenient habit of talking thoroughly about different things I'd like to do and so forth, and never actually "walking the walk" so to speak. Well, Ive given all that nonsense up. Ive fallen hopelessly and madly in love with the most incredible woman Ive ever met, and have been spending as much time with her as I can. So, being that you are all such wonderful and understanding folks, I'm sure you can understand me spending my energies being with her rather than pausing and trying to utilize the few hours of optimal brain function I have on my off days to blog. I know it sucks and it probably doesn't even need saying, but I'm tired and this is my blog so you can piss off if you don't approve. I'm in love people. It is fan-freaking-tastic lemme tell ya. I'll get back to writing about it soon, promise. <3
** I cant for the life of me find the real version of this song online anywhere. But this guy isnt so bad, and its the words that count anyway. So, without the music or the real artist lol, here's a song for ya baby. :)
So what have we learned? I am now nocturnal. I feel a bit brain dead by the time I'm off work. I'm completely head-over-heels in love with one Miss Stephanie (Unforgotten- who, by the way, was NEVER forgotten in this first place :P) and... oh yea, I should be asleep right now. So there you have it. That's my update, hope it was as good for you as it was me HA.
Thus concludes hollowman's blogging session of the day. :)
Posted by hollowman on 2009-11-21 09:27:43 | Rating: | Views: 100
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